Wow, it's been 5 days since I posted last. I think that is the longest I've ever gone without posting. I haven't had much time to read or comment or even answer emails either. Things have been rolling right along with all the day to day things getting done and for once I haven't even really given D/s much thought.
The D/s hasn't gone by the wayside, we are just on autopilot for the moment. That's not necessarily a good thing or a bad thing. It just is. There's been plenty of sex, most of it initiated by me, which is an improvement for me. There was a lovely session with the paddle. That wasn't initiated by me, unless of course you count the fact that I had put on his favorite skirt. Hey, what can I say, it's comfy.
Having been away from reading and writing for so long has left me feeling a bit disconnected to that side of myself. I haven't been upset about it, just disconnected. I do realize that I miss it, but there doesn't seem to be any urge to push for it on my part. I'm kinda just going along to get along.
Musicman seems to be a bit tentative about initiating any kind of dominance. Can't say I blame him any for that, given how things went last weekend. What he has done has been well received by me if not necessarily enthusiastically. I was a bit reluctant when he first suggested a spanking, but once we got started it was great. It definitely helped me get through the week better.
I'm not too sure why this is happening, other than fatigue on my part, but I don't think that is the entire story. I've had a bit of a shift in the way I think about it all and just haven't really had the energy to explore that thought process. I also may be using the fact that I am busy with work as an excuse not to think about it.
Clarity is poking at the edges of my mind and I'm just not ready to deal with the glare of it yet. It's just been easier to take a step back and coast along on autopilot. Honestly, autopilot hasn't been so bad, it's been pretty smooth sailing so far.
I'm sure at some point I will get tired of cruising along on autopilot, then maybe I will have something better to offer here.