Sunday, July 29, 2012
Do I need a reason for him to spank me? No, not really. I'm a spanko, I like being spanked. Isn't that reason enough? If it's not, then maybe I should mention subspace and how fast spanking takes me there. That is reason enough, surely.
That is the premise I have been operating on. That is also the flaw in my plan. Just because I don't need a reason doesn't mean he doesn't. I know, it took me long enough to figure that one out. He has given me plenty of clues. I should have picked up on it sooner.
I have actually suspected for awhile that he needed a reason. I just didn't know exactly what to do with that information. I also suspect that he has been a bit conflicted about it. He says he doesn't want to micromanage me. Thank God for that, it would be a disaster. But, how do we address the fact that he seems to need a reason and I don't?
There is also the issue of me not wanting punishment. There are a few reasons for that. One is I don't see spanking as a negative thing and I don't want that to change. More importantly though, is the fact that I don't respond well to punishment. Punishment, or the threat of it, does not deter me from anything.
In fact, I react quite the opposite. Tell me I can't or shouldn't do something and I will take it as a challenge. I will go out of my way to do that thing I was told not to do and I will do it very well. I will stand up and claim it and take great pride in it with no remorse. In short, punishment is not a deterrent for me so no sense trying to make spanking a punishment.
So, how do we meet both of our needs when they seem to be diametrically opposed to each other? Yeah, that is the knot I have been trying to unravel lately. It's presented a bit of a conundrum that I haven't had the time to ponder upon.
But, I do have some ideas brewing. For instance, he could certainly use spanking as motivation, or as a reward. I respond quite well to both positive motivation and rewards. Ask me to do something and tell me you will be pleased when I do it and I'm a happy little camper. Easy, I know, but that's me.
That then presents the question of, in what areas do I need motivation? What can I do that would merit a reward? Well, I have some thoughts on that too. Are you really surprised I would? However, those things will have to wait for another day.
My man is napping and it's almost time to waken him. He isn't the easiest person in the world to wake. There are two sure ways to wake him up, sex and food. At this moment, I'm opting for food. Ya never know, that may lead to sex.