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Warning the following post is going to be a rant.
You now it's not going to be the best of days when you get out of bed pissed off at the world. I can't even blame it on lack of sleep because I have been sleeping pretty well. No, I am just super frustrated right now, but I don't like to deal with frustration when there is nothing that can be done to change the situation, so I get mad.
If I was the type to throw things and break things I wouldn't have a dish left. Good thing I'm not like that, I guess. But it would feel so good right now.
Often when I get this mad I contemplate running away, just packing a few things and leaving. If I had somewhere to run to I'd be gone.
Then of course there is the guilt of feeling this way. I mean really, who gets mad at someone for being sick? He isn't exactly having the time of his life either. Unfortunately for all the years we have been together I have always deferred to him. If he made a bad choice, he had to deal with it. But this is different, whether he likes it or not(he doesn't) I know better this time. I'll be honest, I don't particularly like being the one who knows better, because he still doesn't listen to me. Well, that's not exactly right, he listens, then he does whatever he wants anyway.
IF YOU ARE NOT GOING TO DO WHAT I SAY, STOP COMPLAINING.
Rationally I know what he is going through is not easy, but if he would just do what I say he would feel better. This is the perfect example of being a submissive wife coming back to bite me in the ass. He isn't used to having someone else, even me, make decisions for him. I don't want to make the decisions, I've had decades of him making the decisions, and he usually makes very good ones. I have never regretted that I chose to let him be the leader in this relationship, until now. Sure I can blame it on the fact that he is in pain, and taking pain pills does not make for a clear head, but if I hear one more whine or one more complaint I may just scream at the man. Not recommended in bedside 101 by the way. And all that will accomplish is to make him as mad as I am, good way to cultivate marital harmony.
Maybe I should consider becoming a switch, maybe a good spanking will get him with the program. Okay, this is where I go, ewww, not in this lifetime.
All right, I don't feel like I want to kill someone right now, so I'm going to go get in the shower and get my day started and hope I can keep things under control. If you should happen to run across an angry woman driving around aimlessly, give me a wave, I've run away from home and am probably lost.
Oh Faerie, I am laughing. You just took a chapter from my memory book. I felt and acted exactly that way when hubby was recuperating from knee replacement. It's just frustration and the release of the stress that had been building prior to and during the surgery. It will get better. I promise. Until then just keep taking hot showers and trying to spend some time with YOU.
ReplyDeleteOH Faerie! ((HUGS)) hang in there girl!
ReplyDeleteDidn't you know men were supposed to be bigger complainers than women? (Joking) well maybe not..
I about had it when I took care of "H" when he had knee surgery. (What is it with guys and knees?)
I, like you, had to remind myself over and over again that he was in pain and on meds that made him that way (or at least added to it)
I agree with Sunnygirl about the release of stress, you can go from just being so happy that they made it through, to being annoyed with them, then you probably feel guilty to top it off!
Quite the emotional roller coaster.
Hang in there!
I had to laugh as well , Men are generaly lousy patients . I know , Im a man LOL And I have a bad knee also . The reason we have bad knees is all the stress developed from years of putting naughty girls over them and spanking there bare bottoms ! lol
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ReplyDeleteHugs, girl! Just remember that this too shall pass. It will get better and him fighting your help is a good sign, in my opinion.
Love,
Kitty
P.S. You can do this!!!
Sounds to me as if he's becoming just as frustrated as you are right now. I agree men are generally lousy patients, especially those who are used to leading. Try to look on it as progress in the right direction? I think he may be trying to re-establish his leadership. Hide the dishes to remove temptation :) and hang in there faerie.
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Of course it will pass, but a hell of a lot of good that does you right now! I feel as you do as far as switching - but that doesn't mean that they don't need their butt beat occasionally. Maybe you could hire a dominatrix for the afternoon. Cuss a lot when you're in the shower. Maybe you could compose a story in your head of the wife as the one who's had surgery and flesh out scenarios of how he'd deal with it eventually.
ReplyDeleteAnd above all else, rant away out here. We'll pity you, laugh at you, cheer on the switch idea, whatever you need because you can complain all you want here and we still know you love him to pieces. We all feel that way about out men, doesn't mean we don't need to cuss about them sometimes.
Hugs,
PK
I agree that men are lousy patients! Hang in there Faerie, this too shall pass! (((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteIt will get better! Hugs
ReplyDeleteHang in there, Nurse Faerie! He's getting better, slowly but surely...
ReplyDeleteThanks everyone, just a quick update here, I was concerned because of the high possibility of Pneumonia. I called Doc, didn't know he was on vacation, but he wanted Musicman to go to the ER to be evaluated. Surprise, Musicman refused to go, Doc anticipated that and called back later to check. We are going in for some bloodwork and x-rays today.
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