Thursday, May 3, 2012

The Bitch is Back

The cast of characters for this post is as follows:

Em - my emotional mind
Rat - my rational mind
faerie - submissive me
Bitch - the real me


Rat, did you hear that noise?

Yeah, I heard it, is that faerie?

No...faerie doesn't make noise like that. I think...it might be...

Oh No!!! Quick, Em, run!!! It's the Bitch!!!  I told you we would wake her up if you didn't shut up and stop crying.  No, don't cry now...RUN.


That's right you snivelling sissies, you better run. Infernal arguing, driving me nuts.


Hi everyone, allow me to introduce myself. I'm the Bitch. I'm the one who's really in charge of this show. Oh, I know faerie thinks she's in charge, that's just cause I let her think that. She was so much easier to deal with before I acknowledged her.

She has really become a pain in the ass since I let her start talking. Now she thinks she is smart enough to make decisions for us. Haahaahaa, that is so funny. She can't make decisions. She's way to soft for that, always stopping to consider everyone else. So pathetic. She can't even handle Em and Rat arguing without falling apart.

I gave her a chance to get it under control. She blew it, she cried and she cleaned and she wore herself out. And what did that accomplish? That's right, absolutely nothing. I was ready to step in sooner and she begged me not too. She said she would be okay, she said Musicman would help her. I knew better, but sometimes I find it amusing to watch her struggle. They call me the Bitch for a reason, ya know!

She thinks he is her knight in shining armor and will come to her rescue. She is so naive, there are no knights in shining armor. He is not going to come and rescue her. She doesn't even realize he doesn't care if she is here or not. One of these days I'm going to get really ticked and tell her the truth.

The truth is he likes me better. I'm the one he is used to dealing with. I don't require nearly the amount of time and energy from him as faerie does. He knows if he just sits tight and waits it out I will step in and take care of things. Sure, I may not be soft, affectionate and submissive like faerie is, but he doesn't really want that anyway. He is quite happy with me, thank you very much.

Sooner or later he will realize she is gone, he may even want her back. It doesn't work that way though, I don't just let her out simply because he decides he wants to play with her. Oh No! I can't ever make things that easy for either of them.

No, he has to step up and prove he can protect her and keep her safe before I will let her back out. I may not like faerie much, she is just way too needy for my comforts, but it's my job to make sure she doesn't get hurt. I take my job very seriously. He didn't rescue her when she fell apart, I did. Now she's back in my control. Bwahaahaaahaaa!!!!

24 comments:

  1. Holy smokes! The Bitch sounds fierce. Good luck Musicman!

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    1. You should have met Bad Ass, she makes The Bitch look mild, lol. Musicman isn't intimidated by her in the least :0

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  2. Well I certainly would not want to mess with the Bitch. I hope she only stays as long as absolutely necessary.

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    1. Most people don't mess with her, that's what makes her so effective :)

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  3. I cannot call you by name - (cause that's against my rules) - but you know that I am talking to you. You are not the real faerie - you are the blustery little creature that appears when faerie is afraid. So I hold my hand out to my friend and ask her what it is she is afraid of? You can only be lost when you are not true to yourself, love. If you want to you can contact me off the blogs ward_june@ymail.com. *hugs*

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    1. Thank you June for the helping hand :) I have a lot more work to do in this particular area and with the support of friends like you I am feeling more confident about getting through it.

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  4. WOW, the Bitch sounds very dominant at the moment. Hope she stays long enough so EM, Rat and faerie will stop their internal strife and come to terms with the situation.

    Joyce Good luck to the both, you and Musicman.

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    1. The Bitch is tired, she has had a long difficult fight, but she will stay as long as she is needed, or til Musicman chases her away :)

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    1. As I told Tess, the Bitch isn't all that bad, necessary sometimes, but really not too bad :)

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  6. Glad she's back. She'll whip the others in line.

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    1. Don't you know it! Kickin Ass and takin names, lol.

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  7. You've got a crowd of people running all up in your head, don't you! Best of luck with the combat. I hope Em, Rat, faerie, and Bitch can live happily together one day :)

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    1. Yes, I do. Don't you? These are just growing pains along the way of them all learning to get along, lol.

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  8. Just catching up on your blog. I hate it when my head gets invaded with all the different "mes". Good luck sorting it out and getting "you" back! hugs abby

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    1. Couldn't some of them just shut up and go away already? LOL. If only it were that simple, huh?

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  9. I can see you Bitch, as faerie's protector, I'm guessing she has come to you a lot over the years. I'm glad you've been there for her and in the outside world she may still need you. But you're not protecting her in the long run by taking over. You're being a bully. Really be her friend and long term protector by making faerie stand and face the problem, deal with the hurt of misunderstandings and work through it. I think she is the only one of you guys really capable of true happiness. But we care about you all.

    Hugs,
    PK

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    1. Your right PK, faerie is the only one capable of true happiness. We are working on getting her stronger, cause in all honesty, the Bitch is tired!

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  10. Maybe you could ask them to all play nicely together over Tea and Cupcakes? I liked what PK said faerie.

    Dee x

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    1. That's a great idea Dee, the problem is they are like a bunch of unruly two year olds. And they listen about the same, lol.

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  11. (((Hugs, faerie!))) When I started reading this, I just saw deep emotional pain that you're still working through. I think PK's advice was wonderful, too!

    Love,
    Kitty

    P.S. You are not the b word, lol!

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    1. It's ok Kitty, I don't find it an insult to be called a Bitch. In fact, in certain situations I will take it as a compliment. I embraced her a long time ago, I would not have survived without her. But, she is tired and just wants to be left alone now. She comes out less and less and doesn't stay as long. That's progress for me :)

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  12. hey, faerie! Call if you need help! Bitch- you've taken care of her for a long time- but we'll all help now-and that means loving you, too!

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    1. Saoirse, thank you for the wonderfully understanding comment. One of these days I will achieve the right balance between the two :)

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