Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Odd Weekend

This weekend was an odd weekend. Holidays are usually somewhat hard for us. They used to be a time of family and friends and visiting and fun. Generations together, laughing and loving. Much of our family is gone now.

I wear a tattoo on my chest, part of it is a constellation of seven stars. They represent the immediate loved ones we have buried together over the years. All but two of them are from Musicman's family, there presence in our lives is missed deeply.

So many of our close friends, people we consider family, have moved away. We did see a few friends on Saturday night. It was fun, but kind of awkward. One couple are newlyweds. When asked how the honeymoon was the woman said she was tired of her husband after three days and wanted to go home. The man complained that he went 4,000 miles away to a nude a beach and the only tits he saw were his wife's. He was clearly disappointed. This couple is in there mid thirtys and it is a second marriage for both, but I still thought it was sad.

One of the other couples is a single woman in her 40's and her latest man. She goes through them like water. The third couple was Doc and Mrs. Doc. I was getting an odd vibe from the ladies all night. I'm not sure why. I do know that the single woman kept telling me how good I looked, to the point of creepy she said it so many times. When I was thinking about it the next day I realized that if I looked so good it is because I'm happy. Genuinely happy, I don't think many people really are genuinely happy with there lives. That's kind of sad too.

Yesterday I woke up in one of those stupid hormonal weepy moods. I HATE days like that. There was no reason for it either. We had some lovely play time the night before. It involved liberal use of the flogger. I do love the flogger.  He uses it so well!

We spent most of yesterday working on the pool. We got alot done and it should be swimmable soon. It is hard physical work and that helped me some. Looking forward to skinny dipping with Musicman is always fun. I wasn't too grouchy or too weepy, but I wasn't too happy either.  When I was done working I showered and put on one of my favorite skirts. Sometimes that helps me feel better too, not so much yesterday.

I curled up, all nested into our comforter on our big bed and rested while Musicman showered. When he was done showering he sat down on the edge of the bed and was rubbing my back. He knew I had been having a bad day and had done what he could to help me all day. He just rubbed my back while I quietly cried for no apparent reason. Then he said the magic words.

"I think someone needs some stress relief, someone needs a spanking."

I just kept quietly crying, stupid hormones.

"Am I right?" he asked me

I just nodded my head. At that point that was about all I could get out, stupid hormones.

He rolled me over onto my tummy, and raised my skirt. I was arranged over the rolled comforter and was clutching onto it for dear life. He used the hairbrush and total stress relief was achieved. He laughed at me when he was done and said he hoped I wouldn't need to sit at my job today. No I won't need to sit at my job, but I'm happy I am still feeling it today.  In fact I was feeling so good this morning I sent him off to work with a blowjob.

I start my new job today. I have an evening shift and will be leaving a few hours before Musicman gets home from work. It will be the first time in a while since he has come home and I haven't been here with his meal ready. I'm much more stressed about that then he is. I don't think he is bothered at all actually.  I will be home just a few hours after him. Poor guy, he will be almost ready for bed then and I will probably be all wound up.  Ah, well, such is life.

Wish me luck on my new adventure. I haven't worked outside the home in 2 years.



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  1. Good luck at the new job.

    I hate having those weepy days. Monster always picks up on the and responds about the same as your Musicman does. With a stress relief spanking. It's funny how that alwas seems to help me find a different perspective and sometimes helps me find what was making me weepy (if it's not during that "special" time of the month) and I can deal with it better.

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    1. I have said before, I don't know why spanking helps when I get like that, but it does. At this point I don't care why it works, I just care that he is so willing to help me feel better.

      The job went well, thanks for the good wishes, I was a bit nervous.

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  2. It is an odd feeling when you look around and realize that so many of the people in life are just not there anymore isn't it?

    Good luck with your new adventure! It's always kind of strange stepping out like that when you haven't in a while.

    You'll be grand, and he won't starve!

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    1. We have lost so many loved ones over the years, it's just so sad sometimes :(

      Work was interesting :)

      He didn't starve, lol. Thanks for the support, I appreciate it.

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  3. Good luck on the first day at work! And I really understand how it is to talk to people who are that unhappy with themselves and their spouse. I find this sad, and it always pulls me down, because I just want to grab them and shaken them.

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    1. Grab them and shake them, Hmmm....yes, that's what I felt like doing. I really wanted to say, "let me tell you a little secret." LOL, they would have been mortified no matter what I said if it in anyway involved sex or submission. They are nice ladies, but a bit prudish if you ask me :)

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  4. Almost 2 years ago I began working out of my home too. I had been working from home for about 11 years at that point. It was nerve-wrecking, but exciting!

    Perhaps that's why you were feeling weepy too? Aside from hormones, there is the added stress of embarking on this new adventure!

    Hope you're feeling much better. Looking forward to hearing about your first day at work. *hugs*

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    1. I think that my impending start date was part of the reason I was so down. I am a good worker, but 2 years is the longest break I have ever taken. I was nervous about venturing outside my comfort zone.

      After the much needed stress relief I was ready to take on the world, lol :)

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  5. Good luck!

    It's amazing what a little happy can do for one's appearance, isn't it?

    Hearing stories like your evening out makes me even more grateful for my relationship... true love is amazing. Tired of my husband after three days? I can't even fathom being tired of him after three months... if we were so blessed as to have three days alone together, that would be lovely.

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    1. I know...right? I was so surprised when she said that, I would give anything to have 3 whole days away with my hubby.

      It makes me very, very grateful for my own wonderful love, but sad for my friends. I'm not sure they even realize what they are missing.

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  6. Hi faerie, Three days? Why did they get married? Sometimes its hard not to absorb the vitriolic remarks of unhappy people. Glad your Musicman could help you purge. Isn't it a great adventure to do something new and exciting, even work?
    Minelle

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    1. Hi Minelle, I was excited and really just needed to get that first day under my belt.

      I was quite surprised by the comments made by the newlywed couple, we've known them for a few years and I would never have thought that would be their reaction. I never do well around unhappy people, I think that was a large part of the awkwardness.

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  7. Having one of those times myself, faerie, I totally understand - and no stress relief in sight - sad sigh -
    BEST OF LUCK on your new adventure! You'll be awesome!

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    1. I'm sorry you are having a hard time, though how you even function with Ward being where he is I don't know.

      It was certainly an adventure, I only met a few of my new co-workers, but they are real characters, lol.

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  8. Hi Faerie,

    Well at this point I assume you are at your new job because it is evening now. SO, sending good thoughts your way. Glad music man was able to help with some stress relief for you!

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    1. Thanks for the suppport SNP, work went well. The stress relief totally helped, the world could have ended and I wouldn't have cared, lol.

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  9. faerie, it's 4:45 here so you are either already through or almost through your shift. I am sure everything went well and now the first day jitters are gone.

    Love MM's stress relief plan. Hope you bottom is still not so sore you can sit down comfortably and put your feet up after work.

    Reading the comments of the newly married couple, don't see that last too long. Definitely not the love match you have.

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    1. I do forget sometimes that what Musicman and I have is not the norm for most couples. It still surprised me to hear their reactions though.

      First day jitters are all gone and I did put my feet up when I got home :) Two years is a long time to take a break, it is gonna take me a bit of time to adjust. But, it will be okay, I'm sure.

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  10. I think you nailed it faerie. You are happy and people can't help but notice.

    It's a wonderful thing when our husbands don't freak out at our meltdowns but know exactly how to help us.

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    1. That is the only thing I can attribute it to, I don't really look any diffrent then I ever have. These particular ladies are very nice, but don't respect or value their men at all. I find it disconcerting and uncomfortable.

      No, Musicman doesn't freak out, thank goodness. Now I have the giggles too. For some reason that made me think of how the other guys would react if Musicman ever suggested they handle their wives the way he does me. He never would, but it would be SO funny. They are huge complainers about their wives.

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  11. Good luck..they are lucky to have you! abby

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    1. Thanks abby...it's so nice to have such great supportive friends :)

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  12. Good luck on the new job and nice that Musicman is there for you when you are having a hormonal day. And nice that being happy makes you look good.

    FD

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    1. Thank you for the well wishes. Musicman always seems to know what I need, he reads me very well :)

      My looks haven't changed, so her continually saying it really made me think about what might be different. That was the only thing I could think of.

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  13. Good luck. I would have been at odds, feeling out of place just because I didnt have the same opinion of things as the others. That is sad about the newlywed couple.

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    1. I never seem to have the same outlook or opinion as other people, but this time it was glaringly apparent. Oh, well, I would much rather be the way I am then the way they are.

      I'm sad for my friends too, they have only been married 2 months, doesn't bode well for there future.

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  14. There is a lot of good in this story - and I loved all of it. Thanks for telling us it.

    Yes, we are having a bit of a harder time being around some of our friends lately too... it sucks, but in my mind, it sucks more for them. (I wish I could help them out though.)

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    1. I'm glad you liked the post. It is weird being around other people when they aren't as happy as we are. Makes me want to clue them in. They wouldn't appreciate it though, they would just think I am crazy. Well....crazier then they already think I am. LOL!

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  15. Good luck on your new job, Faerie!! I'm sending vibes your way tonight. I start my new job tomorrow so I completely understand where you're coming from...I'm all butterflies as well!

    Looks like Musicman is taking care of you, a stress relief spanking always does good ;) I hope you're enjoying that feeling

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    1. Oh, I most definitely enjoyed it, helped immensely, lol.

      Good Luck to you, you will be awesome!!

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  16. Hi Faerie

    The very best of luck in your new job.
    People are so sad sometimes thinking they can make something work but getting under each other’s skin after 3 days. Complaining that you only got to see your wife’s tits on honeymoon, i have to say this person seems a tit himself.
    It is nice to look around sometimes and just think how good it is to be in a special relationship that some people will never achieve. Remember if the stress of the new job gets too much there is always the trusted hairbrush.

    Have fun

    Take care

    BOB B

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    1. Hi BOB B,

      I was so very surprised by my friends reactions. I never thought they would be like that. It did serve as a nice reminder of how very special my marriage is, so I guess there was a positive in there somewhere :)

      My hair is long and curly, I could never get a hairbrush through it, ours was bought for just such purposes :)

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  17. Faerie, this post really hit home. Holidays are really tough for me. I have been feeling some similar thoughts towards other couples. It has made me want to spend less time with others and more time with just my husband. I love the fact that musicman knew what you needed and gave it to you.
    I hope you had a great first day of work.

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    1. Thanks Blondie, I much prefer spending time with Musicman to anyone else. It can be tiring sometimes to be around people who complain so much about their loved ones. Makes me want to smack them upside there heads, lol. Keeping my mouth shut is even harder, but I know they wouldn't appreciate any advice or suggestions from me. Oh well, their loss.

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  18. Congrats on your new job and best of luck with it, faerie!

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    1. Thanks for the support Jake, I really appreciate it :)

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  19. I hope the first night at your new job went well Faerie! :) I can understand why you felt out of place at that gathering. And I think you're right, a lot of people really aren't happy, not genuinely happy anyway. It's a shame really. I'm glad Musicman took good care of you!

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    1. It went great Grace! Thanks for asking :)

      Usually getting together with this group of friends is a lot of fun. This time I just found it sad, they all seemed so disconnected from each other. It just seemed so obvious to me that they weren't really happy.

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