Yep. He finally admitted that he doesn't know how to deal with, "this me."
He admitted that he's used to me being the strong one. He admitted that despite the fact that I've been saying for years, that I'm not that strong anymore, he didn't want to believe it. I feel like I let him down.
I want to be that strong, reality is, I'm just not. He admitted he doesn't know how to handle that. He shared some hard truuths. All valid concerns. I know it was hard for him, and I respect that immensely.
I wish I had a good answer for him. But this is the first time in decades I've felt weak and I honestly don't have an answer for him.
Honestly, what I really need is for him to step up. I need for him to be strong, take charge, give me a break that lasts beyond subspace.
I need to know someone has my back. That would be a novelty for me, and something I wouldn't have appreciated not so long ago. I had my own back and didn't need anyone else.
Now? Now I crave it. I think he's willing, but neither of us know what that looks like. That kinda sucks.