Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Happily, I Dance

I've been thinking a lot about energy lately, personal energy that is. I see peoples personal energy as colors. I guess it would commonly be known as aura's. It's one of those things that I have always taken for granted and never really examined very closely. It's sorta normal for me, but makes people look at me funny if I mention it, so I usually don't.

It's that bitch at work that has made me think of it so much. Her energy is very dark, it rolls off her in waves. I do my best to stay out of her wake, but sometimes I get caught in a riptide. She's toxic. I don't swim well and find it exhausting.

I've followed this thought out some, it has made me remember that Musicman has that same dark energy. But, his dark energy attracts me, it feeds me. It settles and balances me. His darkness doesn't overwhelm me, it enhances and highlights me. In that way, his energy sets the tone of our relationship.

He lets me be the shining light. The focus of everything, yet, behind the dark curtain, he maintains control. Often, I burn too bright, implosion iminent. His energy, so dark and absorbinging, cradles me in safety. Insulates me from the harshness of a too bright world.

His darkness collides with my bright energy, explosions occur. Darkness and brightness do not mix, or create grey.  Souls mingle and burst, into the most brilliant of colors. I wonder some times, does he understand the power he holds in his hands.

Is he the puppet master?

I dance.

I hear his tune.

Happily, I dance.



25 comments:

  1. Hello Faerie

    A very nice little post, i find it fascinating how some people give off an aura of being nasty and toxic.
    I am not very astute in picking up on that sort of thing but some people just ooze it.

    Keep Dancing

    BOB B

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    1. Hey BOB B, so nice to hear from you :) I've always been attracted or repelled by peoples energy. I tend to shy away from women that exude darkness, dark men on the other hand attract me. It's just one of those things I've always relied on, but never given much thought.

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    2. I am always here Faerie and checking all you lovely ladies blogs, just seam to run out of time when it comes to comments

      Have a good weekend

      BOB B

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  2. I love it when you're happy :)

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    1. Awww...thanks Fondles, I dare say, you aren't the only one :)

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  3. I work with a women who is just obnoxious, she has the "im better than you" attitude, i try to not let it get to me, some days are better than others but mostly im of the opinion that i wont allow someone elses negativity to get me down....i refuse to give them that hold over me.

    Thank goodness you have musicman.

    x

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    1. That's usually my take on people like this too. Don't give them that kind of power over me. Unfortunately, this lady is majorly toxic, and I'm struggling a bit to protect myself from her.

      Being able to come home to someone who feeds my soul the way Musicman does is what keeps me going :)

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  4. Glad to hear you are happy and dancing, Faerie!! :)

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    1. Thanks Riley, I'm so happy you are safe and hope you find reason to dance too :)

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  5. I've heard of D/s relations, but Puppetmaster/puppet relations are new to me.
    Well, who cares. If it makes you dance, it must be good.

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    1. It is good, as long as you don't start referring to me as Miss Piggy!

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  6. Happy Dancing, what a blissful feeling! Glad to hear it.
    Funny that you mention people's darkness. There was a woman at work who it seemed, tormented me for 2 years... she was such a nasty person. I could only muster up strength to just feel sorry for her because it must be awful to be such an evil person.
    Yuck. Sorry that you have to work with someone like that.

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    1. Hi Emi :) It's nice to see you out and about. I've encountered people like this my whole life, but this lady is extreme. I do feel sorry for this woman, but wish she wouldn't spread her darkness to everyone she comes in contact with. I think she is very unhappy with her life and just isn't strong enough to change it. It's a shame really, I could probably teach her a thing or two about happiness if she wasn't too prickly to get close to.

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  7. Oh faerie, this post was nourishing to my soul. I was raised to see auras. I suppressed it and pushed away this part of my world - choosing not to see what I saw. More upsetting is that I chose to stop thinking about what it meant and noticing the world around me. I love your thoughts - thank you for sharing!!

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    1. This was just one more thing that made me "different" when I was growing up. It was accepted, but not encouraged. I've since learned that it is okay and am still learning to embrace it. I'm hoping that you have stopped ignoring this gift and are also learning to embrace it for the gift it is.

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  8. Darkness can consume you unless you have light. You are the ting to his yang. Now the Bitch on the other hand had no balance.....she either had no one, some one as toxic as her or some one so weak, she consumes him.

    When I go to a dark place after a deployment, SM does not give into the "you poor thing, you have been though so much" routine. Instead, she is herself, through and through and her light, rather than her pity bring me back from a very dark place.

    I get it.

    TTFN
    Mr. No Name

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    1. From what I've picked up on, she has someone so weak she consumes him. It obviously doesn't work well for her and in some ways makes me sad for her. It also makes me wonder if that's why she targets me? Clearly, I'm not like that.

      I think your SM and I have a lot in common, I don't see any value in pity either.

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  9. So happy to see you dancing:)

    Belle:)

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    1. Thanks Belle, I do love to dance, lol :)

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  10. I think this is a lovely post Faerie and it left me with a smile on my face. :)

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  11. Thanks Grace, it's always nice to know I could bring someone some good cheer :)

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  12. I'm so glad to know you're dancing. I too, feel energy and have learned to trust what it tells me-which is very freeing. To me there is warm safe dark energy and cold toxic-both dark, but very different.

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    1. I learned to trust the energy a long time ago, cause when I didn't bad things would happen. Karma's can be a bitch and she doesn't like to be ignored :)

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