Saturday, November 3, 2012

24 Hours

Thursday night, we're snuggled up in bed. Many things, too mundane to share, have left me somewhat frustrated. I'm blindsided by a rogue hormone and despite my attempts to suppress them, the tears start to fall. I don't want him to know, I silently turn away.

He knows me too well, he doesn't accept my actions. He reaches to caress my face, searching for the silent tears he suspects are falling. I could fool any and every one in my life with my silent tears, learned so long ago. Not him, I've never been able to fool him.

He pulls me to him, safe, enfolded in his arms.

What's wrong, what can I do to help?

I don't know.
It's nothing.
Just a rogue hormone.
I'm fine.

You might be fine, but I want you to be better than fine.

At a loss for words, I shrug and remain silent, because I have no answers to give.

He doesn't accept that either. He flips me over his lap while reaching for the paddle. I don't know why and I don't care why, but from the first stroke of the paddle I begin to be better than fine.

Later, much later, I fall asleep in his arms. I'm now much better than fine. The silent tears long since ceased.

Friday morning, we lurch awake and stagger from our cozy nest. I fall into his arms and he tilts his head so I can snuggle in and kiss his neck. He holds me tight for just a moment while I continue to rain kisses upon him. Too soon we must part and get on with our day.

Friday evening, a long day behind us, tired and weary, we seek solace in each other, snuggled again in our bed.

What are you grinning about?

Am I grinning? I hadn't realized that I was.

Yes, you're grinning. What about?

I'm thinking about you in my mouth. I want to suck your cock. I want to feel you deep in my throat.

Have I mentioned that I'm a very spoiled girl and he gives me everything I want?










22 comments:

  1. oh that sounds wonderful!

    glad you got everything you wanted :)

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    1. Thanks Fondles, it was pretty wonderful :)

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  2. " I want you to be better than fine"....what a great response to the 'I'm fine' reply! That was lovely!
    hugs abby

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    1. He's a man of few words, but when he does choose to use words he usually gets it right :)

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  3. I'm going to remember this for the next time Lisa tells me she is fine. He may have found the answer on the age old question: what to do when she says, she is fine. Ususally, husbands just despair.
    You two go together great.

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    1. Thanks Bas, I think we do pretty well together :) Now that you know what to do when Lisa says she's fine there should be no more reason to despair, lol.

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  4. I am with abby..."I want you to be better than fine".....perfect response! Thank you for sharing and I am so very happy that you got what you wanted :)

    Belle:)

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    1. It was the perfect response, wasn't it? Definitely worked for me :)

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    1. Aww, thanks Sunnygirl :) I've often said he is my reward for survivng such a crappy childhood, moments like these are why I say that.

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  6. Sounds so much like conversations Sir and I have . His desire for me to be happy outweighs my desire to downplay my feelings.
    And I am happy to hear of the comfort he gives you. Its beautiful.

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    1. Thanks Justine, he is always telling me he just wants me to be happy :)

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  7. :) Happy Weekend to you both.

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    1. Thanks SNP, happy weekend to you too :)

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  8. How wonderful that he gives you eveything you want.

    FD

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    1. He takes his job of taking care of me very seriously. I'm a very lucky, if somewhat spoiled girl :)

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  9. I have mastered silent tears...and I am always so happy when he doesn't let me get away with it (mind you I ONLY feel that way with HIM). I don't know why I don't give myself permission to simply cry...not try so hard to hide it.
    I am glad that he wanted you to be better than fine! That is a gift.

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    1. Unfortunately, I learned the trick of silent crying at a very young age, now, that's just how it is. I rarely ever get away with it. Over the years he has perfected the face caress. We both know, in certain situations, it's done to check for tears.

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  10. Silent crying does me no good - he is not moved by a woman's tears. It is really the only thing I hold against him.

    I love that the spanking helped. Me too faerie, me too.

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    1. Musicman hates it when I cry, it's not something I do willingly. I would say it's not something I do easily or often, but menopause seems to have changed that. It's something I truly hate not being able to control. Spanking is about the only thing we have found that helps when the rogue hormones hit, and I'm just happy we found anything that helps.

      Being a spoiled girl is a brilliant way to live, isn't it? Heeheeheee

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  11. There's a keeper! Better than fine! Bravo!

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    1. I couldn't have thought of a better answer myself :)

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