Well it's been almost a week since my last post. I haven't had anything to say, and I still don't.
Musicman is doing okay, he is making progress slowly. At his best he is a pessimist, he is not at his best right now.
While I have no problem writing about or sharing my frustration, his is another thing. I love my husband dearly and while he is not a perfect man, he is the perfect man for me.
I know we will get through this and we will do it together, but I am feeling very protectvie of him right now. I do think of him as my hero, but I also know he has feet of clay. I do not feel at all comfortable exposing his foibles to everyone. Just as I share a side of myself with him that I let no one else see so does he. It seems disrespectful of me to turn around and share that with anyone, and I would never hurt him that way.
I am walking a tight rope right now, one that is going to take great concentration and careful foot placement to succefully navigate. Failure is not an option, so while I concentrate on the tight rope my posts may be somewhat infrequent.
I am spending very little time on line as my time is better served right now being with him and helping in anyway I can. I read when I can, but haven't been in the right mindset to comment as I really don't feel like I have anything positive to contribute. So while you may not see me, and you may not hear me, I will be lurking. Hopefully we have a breakthrough to a better place soon.
All of your thoughts, prayers, hugs and support have been appreciated more then I can express, I'm not sure I would have gotten through this far without them. So I will end this with, Thank you and I'll be back.