Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Musing

It's a mild overcast day here today and I'm just sitting here, pleasantly sore and sated from our recent rehab session. We have another follow up appt. tomorrow morning. This one will not be like the last one, though we are expecting things to go well. We are seeing the Cardiologist tomorrow, he does not inspire any laughter in me.

I have lots of things on my mind, kinda just swirling around. It's not a bad thing, it's not really a good thing though either. Just thoughts, percolating away, observances waiting to be made.

Musicman continues to surprise and delight me. I had been feeling a little sad, thinking I had held him back, that I was damaged. Conina and aisha left some comments that really have started making me see things differently. Thank you ladies for your insight, it has inspired some of the thoughts swirling along with the memories. I don't know where it will lead me yet, but I know with time it will come.

When I started this blog a few months ago I had no idea how much it was going to help me. I have been quite surprised with some of the memories it has brought up. I'm not talking about the bad memories, I knew those were going to come up and writing about them has helped me deal with them more then anything I have tried before.

No I'm talking about the good memories, I have more of those then I do the bad ones. I am an optimist at heart and always look for the positive, no matter how bad the situation. Musicman and I have experienced lots of challenges in our marriage, every life changing event, multiple times. We have always turned to each other and gotten through it. One of the things we talked about way back at the beginning is the fact that we are so much stronger together then we are apart. It's us against the world, no matter what life throws our way, we stick together and we survive.

I'm a very lucky woman in that he and I are a good match physically, we have similar energy levels and our sex drives are about the same. I would say we have had a very healthy sex life and I have never found it lacking in anyway. The man blows my socks off on a regular basis.  Who knew it could get better?

We are going to learn together how much better it can be. That makes me smile.


17 comments:

  1. Like you, I'm amazed at how much writing for my blog has helped me and also how much the comments and new friends have also helped. I hope the cardiologist appt goes well!

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    1. The appy went very well, thank you.

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  2. I had no idea either, none whatsoever. I hope the appt. goes great tomorrow.

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    1. Kind of amazing huh? Things went well, thank you.

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  3. You sound so happy. Glad to hear blogging has made such a big difference in your life. And nice that you have good memories. Good luck on your journey.

    FD

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    1. I thought the Journey was just beginning, now I'm starting to realize I just needed to catch up.

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  4. Your post makes me smile. Pray all with go well with MM and the cardiologist tomorrow.

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    1. I'm glad I could make you smile, things went very well, thank you.

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  5. Glad things are moving forward and are good for you.

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    1. It's good to be back on stable ground again.

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  6. Happiness? Contentment? Satisfaction? Not sure what to call it, but it bubbles through this post. i'm so glad.

    aisha

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    1. Let's call it all of the above. You have given me a lot to think about, thank you.

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  7. Great to see you fizzing with positivity again faerie :) I too really appreciate what I've found here in blogland. So happy that you're so happy :)

    Dee x

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    1. Thanks, the support has been amazing, and I am learning so much about myself.

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  8. Oh I have so missed you since I have been gone... Bless your heart. I'm so glad your Musicman is doing better... praying that the Dr's are going to be telling you wonderful news!!

    It is so wonderful that you and yours has such a wonderful life... and it is equally nice that we are able to remember the good stuff as well as the not so good!! ((hugs))

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  9. I'm so glad you're back I missed you too. We had a bit of a rough patch, but things are getting better everyday. The appt. today was the last follow up and he passed with flying colors.

    I really am a very blessed woman, Musicman has given me the life I never thought I could have. I always tell him he is my reward for surviving my childhood and I believe that.

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