Musing

It's a mild overcast day here today and I'm just sitting here, pleasantly sore and sated from our recent rehab session. We have another follow up appt. tomorrow morning. This one will not be like the last one, though we are expecting things to go well. We are seeing the Cardiologist tomorrow, he does not inspire any laughter in me.

I have lots of things on my mind, kinda just swirling around. It's not a bad thing, it's not really a good thing though either. Just thoughts, percolating away, observances waiting to be made.

Musicman continues to surprise and delight me. I had been feeling a little sad, thinking I had held him back, that I was damaged. Conina and aisha left some comments that really have started making me see things differently. Thank you ladies for your insight, it has inspired some of the thoughts swirling along with the memories. I don't know where it will lead me yet, but I know with time it will come.

When I started this blog a few months ago I had no idea how much it was going to help me. I have been quite surprised with some of the memories it has brought up. I'm not talking about the bad memories, I knew those were going to come up and writing about them has helped me deal with them more then anything I have tried before.

No I'm talking about the good memories, I have more of those then I do the bad ones. I am an optimist at heart and always look for the positive, no matter how bad the situation. Musicman and I have experienced lots of challenges in our marriage, every life changing event, multiple times. We have always turned to each other and gotten through it. One of the things we talked about way back at the beginning is the fact that we are so much stronger together then we are apart. It's us against the world, no matter what life throws our way, we stick together and we survive.

I'm a very lucky woman in that he and I are a good match physically, we have similar energy levels and our sex drives are about the same. I would say we have had a very healthy sex life and I have never found it lacking in anyway. The man blows my socks off on a regular basis.  Who knew it could get better?

We are going to learn together how much better it can be. That makes me smile.