I believe we all carry baggage into our relationships. Baggage that contains both positive and negative things. Hopefully, we learn to unpack and deal with that baggage together, in a healthy way.
I've talked from time to time about some of the negative baggage that I carry with me. I've talked about how he has helped me to unpack and discard so many of the things that do not serve me well. What I haven't talked about is the baggage he carries. I don't believe that this is the place to do that. He hasn't chosen to participate(beyond reading) in this blog and he hasn't chosen to share with anyone the painful things he carries in his baggage. That is his prerogative and I respect that.
But, we are currently dealing with some of his baggage and it makes it very hard for me to come here and write anything. It is consuming him and effecting every area of our lives. I believe that it is a large part of why I am having the problems with intimacy that are occurring.
I am doing my best to try and help him through this very trying time, but it is slow going. I have backed way off in expecting much interaction from him, he's just not capable of that right now. I am trying to provide for him the things that will make his life a bit more comfortable and enjoyable, but I fear I am failing miserably.
I know, with time, love and patience, we will get through this. I just fear the damage being done to both of us while we try to get to the other side.
Okay, enough about that, cause I am already struggling not to devolve into tears over an incident that occurred this morning and thinking about it and writing about it is just serving to drag me down even further.
It has come to my attention that March is question and answer month. I'm game, maybe it will help me to refocus and find the strength needed to get through our current situation. So if anyone has any questions, not there is much you don't already know about me, feel free to ask.