I'm not much of a writer. This blog is the only journal I've kept up with for more then a few days. I'm also not one to look back much, I tend to focus on what's ahead instead of what's behind. Most likely that's because so often when I looked back it was painful for me.
Then I met Musicman and my life changed, for the better. We lay in bed sometimes, in the dark of night, or in the early morning hours, and I ask him the hard questions. Are you happy? Do we have a good life? I know what my answers are, but I want to hear his. I need to know his.
I'm thrilled to say, his answers usually match mine. We are happy, we have a good life. That's really what is most important to me. What's important to us. We've faced our challenges over the years, but we've always come out the other side stronger for them.
I've looked back over my posts and thought back about the year past. It started a bit rough, with him in the hospital. As I sat in that waiting room all by myself, and I needed some one to share with and someone to support me, I posted his progress, and ya'll were there for me. I'm so grateful for that, so grateful for finding this community.
I started a new job and then quit when it wasn't a good fit. I started another new job, and then after a few months took a new position within that organization. I struggled with the women I work with, cause I don't really understand why people have to be so judgemental and mean. He's been there to support me and spank me when needed. You've all been there for me too, when I needed to vent. That means more to me then I can express.
Our son, our baby, moved out, we adjusted to an empty nest with nary a hitch in the program. This was our original goal after all. We filled our time playing until our hearts content. Our daughter struggled, and moved back in. Empty nest gone, privacy, gone. We'll figure it out as we go along.
As I look back at this year, the challenges we've met, I know it hasn't been as bad as some in our past. I'm grateful for that. I don't know what the New Year will bring, but I do know, I can face anything, as long as I have him by my side.
He is my reward, my prize and my salvation. He takes me to heights I've never dreamed of or imagined. I love him with the deepest depths of my soul. I happily look forward to whatever challenges the new year brings. With him at my side I can conquer anything.
We will celebrate the new year as we usually do, connecting with each other, in the most basic of ways. We started some time ago, it's become a tradition. We end the old year and start the new one as we intend to carry on throughout. We connect, soul touching soul, it's a truly beautiful thing.