Monday, December 31, 2012

Another One Bite's The Dust...or...Happy New Year

I'm not much of a writer. This blog is the only journal I've kept up with for more then a few days. I'm also not one to look back much, I tend to focus on what's ahead instead of what's behind. Most likely that's because so often when I looked back it was painful for me.

Then I met Musicman and my life changed, for the better. We lay in bed sometimes, in the dark of night, or in the early morning hours, and I ask him the hard questions. Are you happy? Do we have a good life? I know what my answers are, but I want to hear his. I need to know his.

I'm thrilled to say, his answers usually match mine. We are happy, we have a good life. That's really what is most important to me. What's important to us. We've faced our challenges over the years, but we've always come out the other side stronger for them.

I've looked back over my posts and thought back about the year past. It started a bit rough, with him in the hospital. As I sat in that waiting room all by myself, and I needed some one to share with and someone to support me, I posted his progress, and ya'll were there for me. I'm so grateful for that, so grateful for finding this community.

I started a new job and then quit when it wasn't a good fit. I started another new job, and then after a few months took a new position within that organization. I struggled with the women I work with, cause I don't really understand why people have to be so judgemental and mean. He's been there to support me and spank me when needed. You've all been there for me too, when I needed to vent. That means more to me then I can express.

Our son, our baby, moved out, we adjusted to an empty nest with nary a hitch in the program. This was our original goal after all.  We filled our time playing until our hearts content. Our daughter struggled, and moved back in. Empty nest gone, privacy, gone. We'll figure it out as we go along.

As I look back at this year, the challenges we've met, I know it hasn't been as bad as some in our past. I'm grateful for that. I don't know what the New Year will bring, but I do know, I can face anything, as long as I have him by my side.

He is my reward, my prize and my salvation. He takes me to heights I've never dreamed of or imagined. I love him with the deepest depths of my soul. I happily look forward to whatever challenges the new year brings. With him at my side I can conquer anything.

We will celebrate the new year as we usually do, connecting with each other, in the most basic of ways. We started some time ago, it's become a tradition. We end the old year and start the new one as we intend to carry on throughout. We connect, soul touching soul, it's a truly beautiful thing.

31 comments:

  1. Happy New Year faerie. I hope that it is a truly lovely one for you and Musicman.

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    1. Thanks lil, I hope it is a great year for all of us :)

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  2. Soul connection. How much more beautiful can it be. Happy New Year to you and Music Man, hope it's all it can be.

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    1. I'm a very lucky lady to have such a connection with him. Happy New Year to you and Mr. Sunny also :)

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  3. And you say you're not much of a writer! (Yes, I know you were talking about frequency, not ability...but that is the first thing that popped into my mind after I read this post!)

    This was an amazing post, and made me miss my BD so much more than I already did (which is a pretty strange thing, as I didn't believe I could miss him anymore).

    You and Musicman are so lucky and blessed to be together and so happy. I wish nothing but the best for you both in the new year!

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    1. We are definitely blessed, it would do me good to rememeber that more often.

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  4. with 105 followers I don't think you are such a bad writer. My New Years will be spent just like last year. Home with the kidlets and my Dragon

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    1. Awww...thanks DR, I'm still amazed and thrilled that anyone reads here. I don't know that that feeling will ever change :) We've spent so many years celebrating at home together I'm not sure I would know how to do anything else.

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  5. Your year sounds like one of many changes, much like ours, except for kids moving back in. Love our empty nest. We too will be ringing in the year at home. A good meal cooked together. A dressing up for dinner and a good bottle of wine to watch the ball drop.

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    1. I love my kids, but I miss my empty nest so much. Funny how you don't realize how many changes have occurred until you look back.

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  6. Happy New Year, Faerie!
    Hope the year ahead brings you and Musicman all you may desire ;o)

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    1. Thanks Bleuame, I wish the same for you :)

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  7. A lovely way to end the New Year and begin another one.

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    1. We've celebrated this way for so many years I couldn't really imagine doing anything else. It's really become tradition for us :)

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  8. Happy New Year, Faerie!! Being together....a great way to end this year and begin the next:) Wishing you two all the best:)

    Belle:)

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    1. We enjoy celebrating together, just the two of us. It just seems so fitting somehow. I hope the new year brings wonderful things for you and yours, too :)

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  9. It's funny, I'm not a journaler either. But it is interesting to look back. It is interesting to see what a difference a year makes. This is a wonderful community and you make it so!

    Happy New Year faerie!

    ~fiona

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    1. I realized when I started wrighting this post, that this is the only calendar year of my life that I've documented. I tried keeping journals over the years, but never made more then a few entries any time I tried. I know the difference is this community and all the wonderful people in it. I'm grateful to have found it and been so accepted by them :)

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  10. I always enjoy reading what you have to say.
    It is important that you and Musicman are able to create a beautiful New Year, connecting soul to soul!
    Happy New Year to you all!

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    1. Happy New Year to you and yours Minelle :) Celebrating this way is one tradition I'm thrilled we started so many years ago and am looking forward to continuing for many years to come.

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  11. That is lovely. You are blessed, dear Faerie!! happy new year.

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    1. Thank you Renee Rose, I am very blessed. Happy New Year to you also :D

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  12. Happy New Year. Hope this year is filled with many happy surprises

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    1. Thanks Blondie, Happy New Year to you and the family also :)

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    1. Happy New Year to you and your Musicman, SNP. I hope it brings you much happiness :)

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  14. Anumchara, it gets no better than that, faerie :) (((hugs))), Happy New Year and brightest blessings!

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    1. I had to google that word, lol. I'm so glad I did, and your right, it gets no better then that :) I hope this year brings many, many blessings to you and your family my friend.

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  15. Here's hoping that your 2013 turns out to be a great year, faerie!

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  16. Ive only been following for a month or so, but I cant wait too read your posts in this new year. Happy New Year!

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