Wednesday, December 19, 2012

All I can Do Is...SIGH!!!

It's late at night as I sit here at his computer. I shouldn't be sitting here, it will cause me pain. I don't care much about the pain right now. I can't sleep, I'm feeling a bit lost.

So much on my mind and yet, no focus to write. Part of that is because I haven't been able to write, read, or comment. That should be fixed soon. He finally agreed to let me take my computer to get fixed. I deleted all the stuff he didn't want  anyone to see and tomorrow it goes to the computer hospital for a virusectomy or whatever else it needs. Hopefully, it doesn't take too long to recover.

This is not the best time of year for me and not being able to write has only made things worse. Of course, if I want to feel like my problems are insignificant, all I need to do is turn on the news. I see heartbreak everywhere.

Young men in pain, young children dying. A society with it's head buried in the sand. People are hurting and we turn them away because they can't pay. This makes me so sad. We don't pay attention until something really bad happens. We ask ourselves why, but no answer is to be had. The answer is allusive, it's different for everyone. We talk about a solution, but come to no conclusions.

I'm on overload and feel no relief in sight. That's nothing to do with him. He remains stalwart and strong. Cirumstances being what they are, he's doing pretty damn good. Life just gets complicated sometimes. All I can do is sigh...sigh.



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  1. OMG Faerie - it is 2012 - this has gone on too long. You need a computer.

    (Just trying to help out a bit.) It is a tough time, there is much to say, but really, where do you say it? Not here exactly. But where else are we free enough to show our true selves?

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    1. Thanks for the help :) Hope you guys are feeling better at your place!

      I have a few places that I can express myself truthfully, but they are all on line, so I'm a bit stuck :(

      It's at the puter hospital now, hopefully by this weekend it will be all better :)

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  2. Hoping your computer is fixed really, really soon. i feel so bad for you - i can imagine how hard it must be.

    sending hugs, and love,

    aisha

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    1. Thanks aisha, it should be all well by Christmas. Maybe I'll have a kinky Christmas catching up with Naomi. That should inspire some GREAT playtime ;D

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  3. sigh as much as you need to... we are here to support you...hope your puter gets fixed....
    hugs kiwi xx

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    1. Kiwi, I'm so glad your back. I've been reading when I can. Hopefully soon I'll be able to comment too.

      If I could comment, I'd say don't stay up too late reading, even if it is here, lol :)

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  4. Hang in there faerie. I hope your Christmas has plenty of sweet moments, enough to help you let go of some of this stress.

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    1. Thanks Susie, I wish the same for you. {{HUGS}}

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  5. yeah good luck with the computer. I need a place to unload too.. and can't imagine not having one. (In a pinch I go back to my journal - the one I use a pen on... it's faster on the keyboard tho.)

    Shall I sigh along with thee?

    S I G H ...

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    1. The computer has been checked in to the puter hospital, it should be good to go in a few days :D

      I knew writing here helped me, but I'm not so sure I understood exactly how much until it was gone. Probably a lesson in there somewhere, should I care to look, lol.

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  6. Faerie, take care of yourself and get that computer fixed pronto. Here are some extra hugs for you.

    Hugs, Julia

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    1. Thanks Julie :D Hugs are always welcome. The computer is being worked on, that in itself, makes me feel better.

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  7. Hey friend,
    I think you should be able to file your computers hospital visit under your insurance - after all it's family, plus I think you'll feel much better when it's healed. We miss you too. We're here, remember that, and we'll all looking forward to you being back. Take heart.

    Hugs,
    PK

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    1. Oh PK, I keep telling him all my friends live in my computer. I'm not so sure he really understands that, but then again, he doesn't really understand my need to interact with people. He doesn't have that same need.

      I took it in today, it should be done ths weekend, Yay!!!! I'll be like a kid on Christmas Day when I get it back :)

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  8. It's good to hear from you....hope the puter has a quick recovery...we miss you too! It's the time of year with a lot of sighing going on...
    hugs abby

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    1. Yeah, with everything going on in the world, my problems seem so insignificant. Life is hard, plain and simple. This too shall pass, right?

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  9. Good luck on getting your computer fixed. Hope you will be back soon.

    FD

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    1. It's at the computer hospital right now. Hopefully, I will get it back and be good to go sometime this weekend :D That makes me so happy!!! I have so much too catch up on.

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  10. This time of the year can be hard. Hang on. The first will be here before you know it.

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    1. Come on first of the year!!! LOL :D

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  11. Hang in there. The "merriest" season is almost over. It's amazing how this supposedly happiest time of year is so stressful for everyone. We've missed you and hope your "lifeline" is back soon.

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    1. Truth be told? I wish I could sleep through the holiday season. It's just all too much, for so many reasons.

      My lifeline is off getting new life breathed into it. Hopefully, by this weekend I'll be back up and running :)

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  12. I'll add my Sigh.

    There should be a special place for TTWD bloggers to bring there computers.

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    1. It's at the computer hospital right now. If it doesn't make it, can I have your address? LOL, you can fix it, right?

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  13. So glad you are going to be back to full computing capacity soon. Been missing you! x Mimi

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    1. Thanks Mimi, I've missed being here :)

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  14. Just wanted to send some hugs your way! I hope you can get back to blog land soon!

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    1. I have it back!!!! It seems to be all fixed, good as knew :D

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