Monday, September 2, 2013

How to Wear Stripes

The fashion guru's say that stripes aren't flattering. I've never been one to follow fashion, but I beg to differ on this one. There is definitely something to be said for the stripes I wear.

They are the stripes that come from the kiss of leather on flesh. The pretty pink lines are so appealing as I check the mirror. I twist and turn, trying to see all the evidence of a few stolen moments.

I have no concrete idea why the pain that lingers as I shower in the morning, makes me feel happy, but it does. I check and see the minute bruises that mark me. They make me smile, they make me happy. I could wonder how I became so distorted, but I don't.

I just know that what I got, was what I needed. I know I will need it again soon, too.

Life right now may be out of my control. I may need to submit and freely give, according to someone else's schedule. Not a picture I'm pleased with, because it's not his schedule either, but I'm learning to work with it. It benefits me in the end. That's something I need reminded of often.

Tomorrow life will change for us again. This will be the third major life change I've experienced in as many months. No wonder I embrace the pain and the escape it provides, that come along with the stripes I've learned to love so much.

The change that is going to happen tomorrow will make privacy even more scarce. It will require even more of my time and energy being expended on things other than what I might willingly choose to expend them on. Unfortunately, there isn't much I can do about that right now.

This change will make taking advantage of the few stolen moments available even more important for Musicman and myself. With that in mind and the need to start moving forward in my life again, I have started doing the subtle little things that help me maintain that submissive head space I crave.

It may be awhile before I see my beloved stripes again.  It may be awhile before I feel the kiss of the leather or the thud of the paddle again. Those stripes will be welcomed when the opportunity to wear them presents itself again. Until that time comes, I will be busy caring for and loving my brand new granddaughter who will make her entrance into this world tomorrow.

 I'm very sure Musicman is up to the challenge of spanking Grandma, though I'm still gonna spoil her. That's what Grandma's are for aren't they?





18 comments:

  1. Congrat...and from one grandma to another..
    ..holding that little one in your arms for the first time, is a life changing event, of the best kind.
    ..grandmas are positively mde to be spanked
    ..many things in my life are better as a grandma..not all...and some well..you know..but it is title to be treasured.
    hugs abby

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    1. Thanks abby, it really was wonderful to hold her, now I just want to get them out of the hospital and back home.

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  2. Ooh I love the stripes that last for days. It is hard not to show them off but I know that others won't understand my pleasure. Hope all goes well for you in the next few days. Hugs.

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    1. I was a bit surprised how long the stripes lasted, but loved every minute of it too. I'm tired after a few long days, but I also can't seem to get the smile off my face.

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  3. I envy you your coming grandchild - mine will come some day, but probably farther in the future than I'd like.

    I also envy you you desires.

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    1. Yanno, I was torn about this grandbaby. I wanted to be a Grandma, but not the kind that has to raise the baby. I am slowly accepting that I will be doing that. As for my desires, I would totally share them with you if I knew how.

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  4. enjoy your new baby granddaughter...and find any moments to wear stripes that you can... :-)

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    1. Thanks Terpsichore, I know I will enjoy the grandbaby, I just hope I can find the right balance between that and being "me".

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  5. Congrats to you both!! Yes grand kids are meant to be spoiled.

    I know life seems crazy now. Make time for you and Him. Hang in there. It's going to get better.

    Many hugs!!!

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    1. Oh I totally intend to spoil her rotten, lol. Making the time for he and I is gonna be a challenge, but we are trying.

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  6. Congratulations on becoming a grandmother. Hope all is well and that you are admiring the small hands and feet.

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    1. Everything went very well, both Mom and baby are doing great. The baby has her Grandpa's hands, only really, really tiny versions of them.

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  7. We have that very same sign in our house, although I am not a grandma yet and won't be for a few years. I hope you get both your cuddles and your stripes...grandma's (and grandpa's) have to be creative and sometimes sneaky, right? ;)

    Sara

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    1. I don't actually have that sign but if I ever find one, I will get it. I'm trying to learn to be sneaky and steal the time to still be me. Not always so easy, but I'm determined.

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  8. Congrats on being a grandma! Oh Faerie, good and best thoughts to you and yours!!

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    1. Thanks Bleuame, it's been really wonderful to have something so positive as a new baby in our life.

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  9. Congrats on the new granddaughter Faerie! Grands are so much fun! Hope you and your Musicman can find time to play.

    Blessings,
    Cat

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    1. Thanks Cat, we've got quite a ways to go to get back to the place where I was really happy with things, but we are trying.

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