Saturday, January 12, 2013

T'was Not Meant To Be

If I hadn't already checked, I'd swear it was a full moon this week. Work has been exhausting, seems everyone wants to fall and break themselves right now. When you fall and break yourself, you go to see a bone doctor. I work for a group of bone doctor's and we've been swamped. I believe I am hearing phones ring in my sleep and I'm one match away from starting a bonfire in the chart room.

Things with our daughter are moving along. Unfortunately, they are moving in the wrong direction. Her situation has become more unstable then it was when she moved in. It's frustrating not having any privacy, but it's heartbreaking watching her struggle. I'm doing my best to stay positive and supportive with her. Musicman gets the brunt of my frustrations though. He handles it all quite well, letting me rant and rave until I'm drained. Then I get a hug and a swat and sent on my way.

He's been a bit under the weather, fighting off a bug that's been dragging him down all week.  I've been arguing with a migraine for two days now myself. That coupled with the lack of privacy and my extreme exhaustion has made playtime a thing of memory, for the moment. Hugs, kisses, pinches and swats have become my main diet. Not the meal I'd like, to be sure, but much better then an empty plate.

I had just about convinced myself that all the above, combined with various sundry daily challenges and the memories that came with the thaw, were what was causing me to be agitated these last few days.  It was kinda easy to convince myself of it, because that's what I wanted it to be. Just a minor rough patch that would blow over quickly. Something that could be easily fixed with just a few hours, an empty house and an implement or two.

Oh, but t'was not meant to be, I should never have listened to the messages on my machine. Why did I pick up the phone and return that call? I don't want to hear the things I heard. I want to ignore it and hope it goes away. If only life were like that, but we all know it's not.

I would ask for a favor, from you, my friends, readers and lurkers. If you believe in God, in any form or definition. If you believe in the power of prayer or healing positive energy. Please pray. Not for me, for my baby brother. He's very, very ill. We won't know the whole of it until Monday, but it's very serious, maybe worse. I can't quite wrap my head around it yet.

He's 9 years younger then me, and a fine man. He's spent the last 20 years of his life defending our country, a career military man. He's married to a feisty little lady with an odd mix of Boston/Southern accent. I can barely understand a word she says, and I love her. She's the closest thing to a sister I've ever had. They have 5 sons, all wonderful young men.

This can't be fixed with a few hours and an empty house, so I'll pray. If the opportunity presents itself to play, I will seize the chance and the escape.

22 comments:

  1. Prayers to one who has served with honour!

    TTFN
    Major No Name

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  2. You have our thoughts and prayers, faerie, for your brother and his family, for you, and that the downpour stops and peace and calm return.

    (((hugs)))

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  3. Praying for you and your baby brother!

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  4. Faerie,
    I am praying for your family. Positive thoughts are being sent your way.

    Elisa xo

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  5. Our prayers are with you for your baby brother and for you to have the strength to deal with this. I am sure all your blogger friends will be thinking of you and wishing you the best in these difficult times.

    FD

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  6. Prayers for you, your daughter and your baby brother.

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  7. Prayers for your brave baby brother...and for you too.
    hugs abby

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  8. I do pray and I'm not only pray for your brother and family but for you and your family. Being the ones waiting for new is very, very hard.

    Let us know how things are going - big hugs,
    PK

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  9. Sending warm thoughts and praying, take strength from the support of Musicman.

    hugs

    x

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  10. Thoughts and prayers out to your brother and your family, faerie! Hope you get good news soon!

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  11. Thinking of you Faerie and sending lot's of love and hugs and positive energy across the miles from me to you.Will light a candle for your brother this evening and say a prayer. Take care of yourself Faerie.
    Love and prayers from,
    Mimi XXXX

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  12. sending love and prayers and strength and hugs to all of you.

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  13. Sending prayers your way. I know exactly what you are going through, it's so difficult feeling so helpless.

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  14. Sending lots of positive energy to you and your family. Sometimes it feels you are just a spectator in life. Watching things go bad and not being able to do anything at all.
    Hugs,
    Bas

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  15. Thinking of all of you during this time! Big Hugs!

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  16. I send my prayers with the others here. I hope answers and positive hings happen soon.

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  17. Sending good thoughts and prayers to you and your brother.
    HUGS,
    Mrs. D

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  18. Oh faerie love. I am so sorry. We will pray. We will pray for him, for you, for Musicman, for your daughter, for your sister-in-law and their boys. We will pray for healing...for grace...for peace.

    Hugs,
    Fiona

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  19. Thank you all for the prayers and the support. My brother and sister-inlaw and family all appreciate it. My brother had a bad night and not so great day. He's having a lot of pain and the doctors aren't managing it at all well. My brother and his family do not live close, about 900 miles south of us. Musicman and I are making loose plans for travel, we just don't know when yet. The bug that has been dragging Musicman down all week has finally gotten to him, he's sick. Taking care of him at least gives me something to focus on while I wait for Monday and some answers. Thank you friends :)

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  20. Sending thoughts and prayers your way and to your brother. I hope you get good news.

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  21. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

    Hug,
    joey

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  22. Im so sorry! Ill be thinking of you all and sending good thoughts. *hugs*

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