Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Insomniac Post

It's 3:30 in the morning and I am wide awake,  what's up with that ? Anyway, I thought since I couldn't sleep maybe I would write, hope it makes some kind of sense, lol.

It took me several weeks of almost constant ups and downs before I figured out why Musicman's health issues had become such a huge trigger for me. To say I was over reacting would be an understatement. It took a few more weeks to process it all and do the last few posts. Hopefully things will settle down a little now. We do have another procedure coming up in a few days and once we get through that we may be able to actually make some forward progress.  I'm gonna be cautiously optimistic and keep my fingers crossed.

I am the kind of person that must find the positive in everything before I can leave it alone. I'm still working on that in relation to the incidents of the last few weeks, so in the mean time I thought I would share how my weekend went.

It was a peaceful weekend which was a nice change. Musicman was feeling pretty good when we got up Saturday morning. Every time I got close to him he would swat me. That just makes me giggle, and find another reason to get close to him. When he's in a playful mood like that he tends to call me Woman, too cute.

We went out to do some errands, Musicman was looking for something particular. I happily wandered around the stores with him, just looking at whatever took my fancy. Sparkly things easily distract me. At one store I found myself totally mesmerized, by of all things, a baby blanket. I do not have any babies in my life so I didn't get it. But it was Tink, and it was so soft, and I really wanted it. Struck me as quite odd and I didn't get it. We had some lunch and did some more shopping, Musicman finally found what he was looking for, I got a pair of sandals. I love sandals, they're the perfect shoe cause they come off in under a second. Nothing better then bare feet.

Later that night Musicman surprised me by bringing my computer up to the bedroom and going to my blog. The man rarely even acknowledges that he reads it, so I was quite surprised. I soon found out what he was looking for though. He wanted me to show him some things I like. Unfortunately he meant videos and I don't really watch spanking or D/s or BDSM videos. They are just a little too intense for me most of the time. Odd that I want to do those things but I don't want to watch them, but there it is.

We did look at a few things, but it wasn't really what he wanted so we just commenced to playing. No spanking involved, but I have to say his verbal skills are improving. I swear if he keeps it up he is soon going to be able to talk me into an orgasm. Hmm...that might be fun. Sunday morning brought some lovely slow sleepy sex. My favorite way to start the day. A good weekend overall.

Of course I had to think more about the videos he wanted to see. So, I did something that totally icked me out. I went trolling for videos. I am really surprised how much I don't like watching them. I like to watch porn, if it's well done. I did find one that is passable, I emailed it to him, with a bit of an explanation of all the things he should ignore. I just realized as I wrote that, that I forgot to mention it to him. He doesn't check his email very often and it could sit there for months if I don't tell him.

Looking for the videos also made me wonder what I look like during a spanking. I really have no idea but for some reason I don't think my reactions look much like the ones I see in the videos. This of course led me to think about the times in the past that we have made videos. I'm usually nervous during the setup, but within just a few minutes I forget all about the camera. When we watch them back I am always kind of surprised how my reactions look compared to what I am feeling in the moment. Hmm...wonder where that video camera went?

Yesterday I was out on a mission, there is something particular that Musicman likes that is difficult to find, when I do find it I stock up. I was on a mission to restock, I went to the first store I usually find it at and they were out. I went to the second store, score, I stocked up. While I was happily loading my haul into the car I realized I was right next door to the store that had the baby blanket that had so mesmerized me. I bought it, and a queen size pillow. An hour later, a whip stitch with some eyelash yarn and I now have the most adorably cushy Tinkerbell pillow. It was funny when we went up to bed earlier this evening and I walked in to see Musicman holding the pillow. Somehow he just doesn't strike me as the Tinkerbell type, but boy is it soft. 

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  1. Maybe you and Nick should talk in the middle of then night, he often has a hard time sleeping. I'm glad you had such a good weekend. I love those days of constant swats, just keeps a smile on you face.

    I don't watch many videos either, but spankingtube is a good place to look when you want to. I like still photos, but I only like the ones where I can the woman's reaction. I doubt I want to know exactly what I look like.

    Beautiful pillow!

    Hugs,
    PK

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    1. I think of sleep as a competitive sport, and I'm on the losing team, lol. Sorry to hear Nick is too.

      It was such a peaceful, easy weekend, we needed it :)

      It was the face shots of the girl getting spanked that made me wonder what I looked like. I really don't think I react the way most pics or vids display, but I really don't know.

      Hmm...spankingtube, mental note made, thanks.

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  2. We've got to get you some Sleepytime Tea! I do love your pillow and at the end of reading this the thing that was so clear to me was how much you love your husband. How much you focus on his needs but also pay attention to yours. It's pretty neat faerie.

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    1. Aw, thanks Susie, love is a many splendored thing! At least that's what the song says anyway :)

      I have the Sleepytime tea, totally forgot about it, sheesh.

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  3. ..Glad the weekend went well. Love the pillow great idea! I also find some videos on spanking tube that catch my interest. Melatonin..safe and natural works when sleep starts to elude me. hugs abby

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    1. I put Melatonin on my grocery list :) I'm always willing to try knew things for the insomnia, as long as it is natural.

      I have a slight addiction to pillows, have ever since I was a baby. This one is sooooo soft.

      We'll have to check out spanking tube, thanks.

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  4. What a lovely post. Happy you had such a nice weekend. Wonderful idea for your Tink pillow. You are so creative. Even though I don't know you two, I can just picture this big burly man hugging that pillow.

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    1. That picture would be very accurate, lol. Still makes me laugh. I made a pillow a couple weeks ago out of a new pair of Musicman's boxer briefs, you'd think maybe he would like that one, but not so much. Guess he is getting used to living with faeries, haahaahaaa.

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  5. If you didn't do, by the end of this, I was going to tell you to back and get that blanket. A pillow is a great idea.

    I really liked hearing that man could talk me into an orgasm... they really underestimate the power of words, don't they?

    Kitty

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    1. For a whole lot of years I didn't want to hear dominant talk, really couldn't tolerate it, so he is trying to break a 25+ year habit. He's doing very well :)

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  6. I always find it interesting how picky I feel about what I watch--I rarely like seeing what I enjoy doing lol.

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    1. I much prefer to read about it, but a lot of men are more visual learner's and more easily visually stimulated then women. I've spent a lot of time over the course of our relationship developing that skill, just makes everything a little easier. But it's still not real natural or comfortable for me sometimes.

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  7. Even though this was in the middle of the night, you sounded much more peaceful to me Faerie. What a wonderful idea to make the blanket into a pillow. I imagine it's very soft and will probably become the favorite pillow in the house. lol

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    1. Mine! Mine! Mine! Oh sorry, I have an unnatural predilection for pillows, and I don't like to share them, lol.

      It was a good weekend and a good memory, after I got done posting I went to bed, Musicman curled up around me and I was out :) I didn't even hear him get up this morning, very unusual for me.

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  8. I don't enjoy videos either. I've tried now and again, but they just fail to trigger anything in me at all.

    Being talked to an orgasm is a pretty awesome thing.

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    1. How did I know you would like the part about him talking me to orgasm? LOL. Oh yeah, those awesome skills your guy has in that area.

      Considering the fact that I would cringe every time he has tried it previously, until recently, it is something new for both of us. He's adapting pretty well :)

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    2. This gave me such a huge smile. :)

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  9. You sound really good and I am glad to hear it. Loved the picture of the pillow. We have not watched many videos and I have been told that will happen soon. I wonder what my reaction will be.

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    1. Ooh I can't wait to hear your take on it. It really seems silly to me that I get so uncomfortable watching and yet I'm asking him to do these things. I'm chalking it up to being a silly girl, lol.

      I'll just have to get over it, cause it really was pretty hot that he asked. And really, what's not to love about him being interested in knowing what I want?

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  10. I have also found that I don't enjoy watching much of what I like doing or being done to me... sometimes though, I wonder about making a video ourselves. AK!

    I too have sleeping troubles from time to time, but while I have tried watching movies, I more like reading.
    I LOVE seeing blog updates and usually stay up reading them until my eyes sting!

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  11. When we first started making videos it made me really uncomfortable to watch them, not anymore :) If we do a spanking video I'll let you know how it goes!

    I love to read too, but it doesn't help me sleep, I get engrossed in what I'm reading and will be up all night, lol. Take good care of those babies :)

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  12. We've had fun trolling for videos and then sharing the ones we like. At first Joy was intimidated, but after a bit of practice and a glass of wine, she had fun and we got a few ideas we could use as well. However, she's definitely not into making videos of her own...or, at least, not yet. That's one of those ideas we're working on...

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  13. I never had too much problem with the making of them. The whole setup and lighting think is a bit of a turn off, but once we get started I usually forget about the camera.

    It took me a lot longer to be comfortable watching them, but I like it now :)

    Good Luck with your idea, it really is a lot of fun.

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  14. Aw, I love what you did with the blanket! And so sweet that your husband was holding onto it.

    I'm not a huge fan of watching videos either - blech! But, he is, so, naturally, as his sub, I have seen some. That was a lot of commas for one sentence.

    I hope you were able to get some sleep!

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  15. I was not a big fan either, but I've had a lot of years to learn to like them. I learned to like them beacuse he likes them. That's how I learned to like doing them too, for him :)

    I love the new pillow, and I did get some sleep, thanks.

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