One of the things I quickly learned when we started TTWD was that given enough time and effort hard limits become soft limits and soft limits fall away. At least that seems to be how it works for me.
For a man of few words, during playtime Musicman turns into a chatty Cathy. If it's not a running commentary on what's happening at that moment, it's a narrative on some of his wants that currently fall into my limits category.
The man could seriously be an erotica writer if he wanted too. I admit the man and his sexy stories have made me cum without him ever touching me. He's either very calculating or it's just his way of getting his fantasies fulfilled. Either way it's working, my limits are changing.
Since things have been going well I had the crazy idea to offer something that I've never done. Something that previously had been a very hard limit for me. And, I stupidly did not inform him of my intentions. I thought it would be fun to surprise him.
He had just gotten into the shower. I decided to join him, not something I usually do cause at our age a broken hip or something equally as bad is totally possible. I really thought that since I've recently had to add safety equipment, like grab bars, to our shower it would be ok.
At first things went quite well. I was pampering him. Washing his hair, and taking my time to thoroughly wash, rinse and massage him. I was literally seconds from making my move and offering something he's been talking about for years.
Unfortunately, it was not meant to be. A misstep on his part and everything came crashing down as he fell. He wasn't hurt, though wasn't too happy with me either.
We did go on to have some lovely playtime with the flogger, but I still haven't told him what I was going to do. I was mortified with what happened and am way too embarrassed to say anything then or now.
It's still on my mind. I think that since I made the decision to do it I now want to follow through and do it for him. Just gotta figure out how to get over my mortification and embarrassment and tell him.