Wednesday, November 7, 2018

Thank you and farewell, for now

First I'd like to say, Thank You.  Thank you to my readers and commenters over all the many years I've come here to express my thoughts and emotions.

This is the most welcoming community I've ever had the privilege to be a part of.  No matter what I'm dealing with I've always been able to come here and express myself.  I've received love, support, friendship and the occasional kick in the ass when needed.

I wish blogland was a real physical place.  There have been so many days I would have given just about anything to pop in and have a cup of coffee or maybe a glass of wine and chat with y'all.  I've found much wisdom and strength from each and every one of you, be it through comments you've left, or what you've shared on your own blogs.  Y'all have helped me more than you can know.

Now for the farewell.

I've spent the  last several weeks getting my affairs in order.  I'm leaving Musicman.  Words I never thought I'd say.  Words that break my heart.  I still love him, but this relationship, the entire situation really,  is toxic.  If I don't leave I will not survive.  I  truly believe that and can not let that happen.

I'm leaving Sunday.  I'm going to be staying with my brother and T.  I've spent quite a bit of the last year with them and that truly is home for me now.

I'm scared.  I'm excited. I feel confident in my decision.  I feel free.  I'm looking forward to having a life and being happy again instead of just existing.

I don't know if I'll have much time or content to write about so I don't know if I'll ever come back.

I don't long distance drive. I tend to have panic attacks just being a passenger in a car on the highway.  I have to drive 300 miles by myself on Sunday.  Prayers and positive thoughts are appreciated, especially since there is a good possibility I'll be driving through a snow storm the first couple of hours.

I wish you all much love and happiness .


  1. First -- I will be thinking of you on Sunday when you do the drive... You can do this !!

    And as for coming back here to post .... ya know I would enjoy reading every day mundane stuff - honest I would. It's just a way of knowing you are getting through this tough time.... which you will !!!

    Selfishly I am gonna ask for just one more post from you (if I haven't yet convinced you to continue posting) would you just post and let us you know you got to your brother's safe and sound please??

  2. Life is too short to just exist. I think you are very brave for moving on at this time. May your horizons be filled with magnificent sunrises and may you find who you need to enjoy the sunsets.

    Safe travels on the weekend, and a wonderful journey from then on!


  3. Hi Faerie,

    I wish you nothing but true happiness ahead. You are brave for making the move. Will be thinking of you while doing the drive also and am with Morningstar, please post to let us know you are at your brother's, and maybe the occasional post to let us know how you are doing.

    Wishing you every happiness and the very best.


  4. Dear Faerie, I'm so sorry your life has taken this turn, but glad that you're doing what you need to do to survive. I hope this turns out to be the first part of a journey to somewhere better I've loved reading your posts over the years and hope you will pop back in from time to time to tell us how you're doing.

    Sending you lots of love and light as you start this new part of your life journey. Remember that you always have friends here...

  5. I'm sorry for what you're losing. Changing your life completely is always a daunting prospect. But I have no doubt of your ability to do it and do it well. I agree with Morningstar, I hope you'll change your mind about posting. I feel we have helped one another with our freely admitting our desire to submit and our love for spanking and such. We've made people feel normal who had felt strange or alienated before. How many more women need to leave a toxic situation - scared, unsure, lost... You could help them too. They may need to know that survival and start over. I hope you don't leave us.

  6. sending you positive thoughts and good wishes on your journey and I hope we can stay in touch. you have many friends here and I am glad to be one of them. we may not be able to pop in for a cup of tea, but we are all here for one another. Hugs to you

  7. Hi Faerie,:) I wish you well as you begin this new chapter in your life. Am happy to read that you are going back to your brother and T. You always sounded so happy when you posted from there. May that happiness continue and grow, moving forward.

    Safe travels, Faerie. Love the idea of popping on and letting us know that you arrived safe and sound, if you can. If you can get back to writing here and there, we'd love to hear from you to see how you are doing. Take good care. Many hugs,

    ❤️Katie xoxo

  8. Hello Faerie, sorry I have been absent for a while so not sure what's been happening. Oh I will be sorry to see you go. Hope you find the happiness you are seeking. Good luck for your future and try pop in every now and again. Safe travels!
    Take care!
    Hugs Lindy xx

  9. OH , love and love and good wishes! As Morningstar said - PLease if you could, just drop one last line when you DO get to your brother's safe and sound. Snowstorms can be scary. Sending many hugs and vials and vials of unicorn magic your way!

  10. Fairy you will be missed. It takes bravery to face monumental change even if it is truly for the better. Hope you find happiness and fulfillment in all your future endeavors and know that blogland will always welcome you back.