Lately, life feels a lot like surfing on a river. What's that you say? You've never heard of surfing on a river? Let me describe it for you. You are balanced on a smallish, narrow board, negotiating rapids, with no shore in sight. You look for a quiet little inlet that might provide some small chance for rest. Instead, all you see are the dangerous eddies that threaten to suck you under.
I've been doing a somewhat decent job of avoiding those dangerous eddies. I haven't spotted any quiet inlets in which to rest, but I'm still upright amid the rushing waters. That's a good thing.
Life continues to be quite hectic. No privacy in sight. I seem to have turned a corner in dealing with the chaos. My new mantra has become, "let it go, just let it go." I tell myself this, what seems to be millions of time each day. It doesn't change anything, but it does help me move on, not stay so focused on the negatives.
In the course of the swirling thoughts, I actually did find what I think might be a bit of a solution to help us stay connected amidst the chaos. I thought about it quite a bit before emailing Musicman with my idea. He did read it, though that's about all he has done.
There have been no comments or shared thoughts on my idea. Totally expected from him, but the waiting is about to drive me a bit more insane than I already am. Oh well, "let it go, just let it go." Ah, there I feel better already. Well, not really, but one can hope.
In the mean time, I will continue to negotiate the rapids and hope and pray that I stay balanced and upright. Maybe I'll even find a quiet inlet soon and take the chance to rest a bit before the next set of rapids arrives.
I love analogies and yours are great!
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Thanks Meredith :)
DeleteHi Faerie, I love your analogy and the positivity in this post. I definitely need to adopt your mantra! I hope you find that quiet inlet soon :)
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Roz
Thanks Roz. I'm usually a pretty positive person, but the challenges this year seem to have sucked that right out of me. It's kinda nice to start feeling a bit more like myself.
DeleteI hope he acts on your suggestion. Good analogy and good luck as you cope with everything going on in your life.
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Thanks FD, I hope he responds too. Most likely he will, just in his own time, which is never the same as mine.
Deletewriting and waiting.....i so get that, a lot. i'm still waiting to response on one subject that i know will help with my mindset and submission. Now, i know He has read it, it's just a matter of how He will address it.
ReplyDeleteTo help with that sanity. How does Musicman usually address such communication? Knowing this week he'll worth patience. Just remind yourself of it. For instance, Sir, when He knows how important it is to me and my submission, waits until we are in person. He either then "teaches, leads, lectures, etc" by showing me the response. Though i would like the answer now, and that He hasn't answered, let's me know that He took my email seriously. That thought is worth the wait.
((hugs)) i hope you hear from Him soon.
Musicman is not much of a talker, much more a doer. I'm sure at some point he will respond, until then I need to practice patience, something I'm not very good at.
Deletestupid auto correct... *will be worth the patience
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DeleteYou sound a little brighter, it must be from dodging those rapids.
ReplyDeleteKeeping my fingers crossed for you my friend.
Thanks Sunnygirl. I've got a long way to go, but feel like I have turned a corner of some kind.
DeleteWe all hope for those quiet little eddies. Recognizing the eddies on our own river can be tough when theyre not as quiet as we hoped. Hold onto those bits where it does get a little easier. Take that time to recover your strength enough to stay afloat around the next turn.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry your river is full of so many rapids that are waaaay bigger than anybody should have to deal with.
It has been a very challenging year. One of the worst we've ever had. I'm not the type of person to wish my life away, but I'm looking forward the end of this year.
DeleteMany wishes for serenity and peace for you soon. The rapids are not at all fun, especially when you don't want them.
ReplyDeleteThanks Ana, I'm ready for a tranquil little pond right about now.
DeleteThat is such a sexy picture Faerie!
ReplyDeleteWe have a river people surf on over here. It happens once a year. It is the River Severn and it is called the Severn Bore.
Once a year the tide out in the estuary surges inland, and mainly youngish men try to surf it. Some surf it for more than a mile! Several folk "canoe" it. It's nearly always on TV and it is quite famous.
So you see, you really can "surf" a river! I think you are a very clever woman. And you've got your head in the right place too. Your analogies are excellent!
Hope things continue to feel better.
Hugs
Ami
Ami, thanks for telling me about the river surfing. I've never heard of that, it sounds like fun. I do some visualization and the river surfing has been stuck in my head for quite a bit now.
Deleteoh sweetie, hugs!!
ReplyDeleteThanks fondles :) Things have to calm down soon, don't they? Goodness, but I sure hope they do.
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