Saturday, February 16, 2013

Maybe

There are times in my life, when I succumb to the pain. So much darkness overwhelms me. I don't have the strength to hold my head up.

I'm so grateful to borrow his strength. I borrow his strength to continue on. Fighting the good fight. Pretending I have the strength to go on.

He bolsters me, when I feel weak. When change swirls about me, leaving me weak and confused. I seek growth in the confusion. I wish for it to stop.

I seek clarity in the pain. I seek shelter in the storm. I want to run, maybe hide from reality. That's not an option for me. A slap in the face pulls me up short.

Meet pain with pain.

Meet strength with strength.

Plans change.

Destinies, no longer reality.

Goals become remote, but not forgotten.

I continue to reach, unending in the scope of things.

I want to feel again.

Love.

Pain.

What is the difference?

Maybe I will learn.



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    1. I'm doing my best, some days it just isn't enough though.

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  2. Just make sure to keep moving! It will get easier.

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  3. Thinking of you and sending hugs...

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  4. So glad you have your man to lean on. hugs

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    1. Me too, I couldn't deal with all this without him :)

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  5. I'm thinking of you faerie. I hope things get easier soon.

    Hugs,
    PK

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  6. Hope you feel again and learn the difference between love and pain. Good luck.

    FD

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    1. Maybe soon, but I'm not holding my breath waiting, lol.

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  7. Hugs to you faerie (((((((Faerie))))))))))

    Belle

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  8. I'm glad you have musicmans strength to lean on, and I'm sending you lots of positive thoughts.
    ((Hugs))

    Dee x

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  9. (((((hugs))))) I hope you feel better, faerie.

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    1. Thanks Riley, I'm sure I will at some point :)

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