Did ya ever get something stuck in your head? Something that you try to ignore, but it won't go away. So you decide to follow the thought and see where it leads.
I've had a thought like that plaguing me the last few days. It's a simple thought really. It's the master bedroom I've been thinking about. You wouldn't think that would be much of a thought. While I enjoy interior decorating and such, that's not what I write about. And that's not really the way my thoughts are turning.
Our master bedroom is the most common place we play, we've marked it off our list several times over. I'm sure that's why I'm thinking about it, I just don't see where that thought is going to take me. It won't go away, so I'm following it.
It takes me to time very early on in our relationship. A difficult time, marked by flashbacks of the abuse I endured. I don't remember much about those occurrences. They were sudden onset, they were violent on my part, they were scary.
He was always there, talking me through it, never letting me go. I vividly remember him saying, "there's no one here, just us, no one is allowed in here, I won't let them. It's just you, and me, no one else. No one else is allowed in here." Those words, and others like it helped me through those times. The flashbacks eventually stopped.
But in those words lay my comfort, in those words, lay my salvation. In those words, he created my safe place. In those words, he created my master's bedroom. He created the one place in this world where I can truly be me. He created my place of rest. He created my place of joy. He created my master's bedroom.
The master bedroom is a place in my house. My master's bedroom is a place in my head. I much prefer my master's bedroom to anyplace else on earth. My master's bedroom is a place of peace and tranquility. My master's bedroom is a safe place, a place I can let go and play until my heart's content.
The master bedroom in my home is a place I share with my beloved Musicman, but he created a place for me that's even better. He created my master's bedroom, a place in mind where ugliness doesn't exist. He share's the master bedroom with me every night, and in so doing he feeds the energy that creates my master's bedroom.
They say that home is where the heart is. My home is in my master's bedroom and it always will be.