Thursday, September 20, 2012

Master's Bedroom

Did ya ever get something stuck in your head? Something that you try to ignore, but it won't go away.  So you decide to follow the thought and see where it leads.

I've had a thought like that plaguing me the last few days. It's a simple thought really. It's the master bedroom I've been thinking about. You wouldn't think that would be much of a thought. While I enjoy interior decorating and such, that's not what I write about. And that's not really the way my thoughts are turning.

Our master bedroom is the most common place we play, we've marked it off our list several times over. I'm sure that's why I'm thinking about it, I just don't see where that thought is going to take me. It won't go away, so I'm following it.

It takes me to time very early on in our relationship. A difficult time, marked by flashbacks of the abuse I endured. I don't remember much about those occurrences. They were sudden onset, they were violent on my part, they were scary.

He was always there, talking me through it, never letting me go. I vividly remember him saying, "there's no one here, just us, no one is allowed in here, I won't let them. It's just you, and me, no one else. No one else is allowed in here."  Those words, and others like it helped me through those times. The flashbacks eventually stopped.

But in those words lay my comfort, in those words, lay my salvation. In those words, he created my safe place. In those words, he created my master's bedroom. He created the one place in this world where I can truly be me. He created my place of rest. He created my place of joy. He created my master's bedroom.

The master bedroom is a place in my house. My master's bedroom is a place in my head. I much prefer my master's bedroom to anyplace else on earth. My master's bedroom is a place of peace and tranquility. My master's bedroom is a safe place, a place I can let go and play until my heart's content.

The master bedroom in my home is a place I share with my beloved Musicman, but he created a place for me that's even better. He created my master's bedroom, a place in mind where ugliness doesn't exist. He share's the master bedroom with me every night, and in so doing he feeds the energy that creates my master's bedroom.

They say that home is where the heart is. My home is in my master's bedroom and it always will be.



44 comments:

  1. Having a place of sanctuary that scared space--whether it is in our heads and/or in our physical locales,is a must have. Thanks for giving us a glimpse of yours :o)

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  2. Absolutely lovely that place of yours.

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  3. This is a really significant thought and I am glad you are following it through - I love both the subtext and actual text - a safe place is both tangible and intangible; existing and created.

    I am glad you have that.

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    1. I really wasn't sure where it was gonna take me, ended up being some place pretty nice :) I'm glad I have it too.

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  4. I think that this is one of the best metaphors I have ever read.
    It really is lovely.

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    1. Sometimes these thoughts end up going no where. Guess this time it was worth pursuing :)

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  5. This post was both reminiscent and meaningful as well as very well written. Thank you for posting!

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    1. Thanks for the lovely compliment, I'm glad you enjoyed it :)

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  6. Musicman built this special place for you. None of the evil of the world can enter that place because it is not a part of the ordinary world.
    Only you two can exist there.
    It's a good thing he built it in your Master bedroom.
    Guarantees good and safe nights together without interference from worldly things.

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    1. He kinda had to build it in the master bedroom, that's where the flashbacks always occurred. True to his word, no one ever goes in our master bedroom but us :)

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  7. Thank you for a beautiful post. I agree with lil, I really liked the way you described your "mind space" when you are with Musicman.

    Brilliant,

    Hug,
    joey

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    1. I just followed a nagging thought and that's where it took me. Often when that happens, it stuns me where it goes :)

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  8. What a wonderful post and a grat analogy. We all need a 'place' we can excape to when the real world around us is going crazy..you have the perfect place!
    hugs abby

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    1. Thanks abby, I would wish for everyone to have a sanctuary like this to escape to :)

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  9. I agree with you 100% The master bedroom is a place I can feel close to Dragon even when he is far away. It is a retreat. Almost a vacation spot from life.

    Well said.

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    1. A vacation spot from life, what a great way to describe it :)

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    1. Thanks, I'm just happy it makes some kind of sense. When these errant nagging thoughts happen they don't usually make sense to me :)

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  11. I am glad you found somebody who could do that for you. Makes me hope that other people who have gone through similar situations find a safe place like that too.

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    1. I'm glad I found him too, though really, he found me, lol. I wish everyone, regardless of what they have gone through, would have a place like this :)

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  12. So sweet! That safe haven he's created for you is priceless.

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    1. Oh, yes it certainly is priceless :)

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  13. There's no one here. Just us.

    Just the world is safe and structured. Just I can give my absolute love and trust.

    Just I can be who I really am.

    Cause it's just us.

    Miracle on miracle. All it takes is just us.

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    1. You always leave the best comments :) Thanks for that.

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  14. Hi faerie! I've been meaning to come visit you for several weeks now. I'm glad I finally managed it. This is a beautifully written post and I truly enjoyed reading.

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    1. I'm glad you managed it too, welcome :) I hope you will continue to enjoy them, though they aren't all like this, lol.

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  15. He's a special man faerie huh :) Really liked this post

    Dee x

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    1. I think so :) I'm glad you liked it, these errant nagging thought posts sometimes worry me. Sometimes I don't think they make much sense.

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  16. So sorry I am late here.

    He so tenderly helped you feel safe, and freed you, enabling both of you to fulfill your love and desire.

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    1. No need to be sorry, it's never too late to join the conversation :) I've often said he is my reward for surviving, I truly believe that he is.

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  17. Absolutely beautiful. I love this so much.

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  18. how wonderful and lucky that he is home every night to share it my friend.beautiful entry

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    1. Thanks Trazuredpet, I am indeed lucky to have him home with me every night. That is a requirement he has insisted upon since the very beginning, that I be in his bed with him every night.

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  19. So beautiful! I am glad that you have each other....

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    1. I'm glad you liked it, I'm a very lucky woman to have been given such a wonderful man to be my soul mate. I frequently say he is my reward for surviving :)

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  20. That is so beautiful and what a wonderful place.

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    1. Thanks Jamie, I'm happy you enjoyed it :)

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  21. That was a beautiful post, faerie. I'm so glad he made a sanctuary for you-and it is one you can always carry with you.

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    1. Thanks Saoirse, it's a place I wish everyone had :)

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