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He is a pessimist, I am an optimist.
He is antisocial, I am a social butterfly.
He is very responsible, I am fun loving and carefree.
He is Dominant, I am submissive.
I was well aware of all the above statements, except that last one, when we married. Yet, that is the one that has had the biggest impact on my life.
I knew that if I chose to be with him my life would change. I knew he was not going to bend too much. That was okay with me, I'm very flexible. I wanted that unbending strength, not just his physical strength, but his strength of character.
He feels the weight of responsibility very acutely, to the point of having tunnel vision at times. These responsibilities can make him a very serious person. He forgets to enjoy life.
We had an opportunity to get away for a couple nights. I had big plans. I had a pretty dress and sparkly shoes just waiting to be worn. I was looking forward to making wild and wonderful memories with him. Memories are the most precious things to me. No one can ever take those away.
I thought he knew how important this opportunity was to me, how much I wanted those memories. I was wrong. He didn't see me, he didn't hear me, he was stuck in that tunnel.
I try to live my life without regrets. I look for the lessons in the situations before me. I make an active attempt to be open to experiences that come my way. I long to make great memories.
I feel like I have missed an opportunity to experience an adventure that would have given me great memories. This opportunity was not something he could bend on right now. I accept that.
He is Dominant, I am submissive.
