Tuesday, January 7, 2014

Spanking On His Mind

to continue from my previous post...

I lay waiting on the bed while Musicman showered. I knew he had playtime on his mind, I did too, only not in the same way. I was quite torn. Usually, I always look forward to playtime, sometimes a little nervously, but I look forward to it. This time, I was torn.

There was most definitely a part of me that was still miffed. Not with him, but with the situation. I did NOT want to play. Unusual for me, but, there was a part of me that did NOT want a spanking. We don't do punishment in any form, so that wasn't it.  I just needed a bit more time to move past everything. I just can't switch moods that fast like he can.

Then there was the part of me that did want to play, the part of me that knew that a good spanking would definitely put me in a better headspace. Those two parts of me had quite the argument amongst themselves while Musicman was showering. I was very tempted to tell him no, but I never do that. Mostly because I know that even if I'm not in the mood, if I go into it with an open mind, he will get me in the mood, usually rather quickly too.

So, that's what I tried to do. I was open to him and a spanking, but I wasn't enthusiastic about the  whole thing. I don't know if he was taking out some of his frustration, or if it just felt that way to me. He started with the magic paddle, which normally I love. This time, not so much. I do think part of the problem is that due to the recent dearth of spankings around here, I am finding the magic paddle a bit much to start with. My mixed emotions most definitely effected how I responded too. It plain hurt and not in the good way, I very quickly started to cry, very, very unusual for me. I have only cried once before from a spanking.

Musicman hates to see me cry and since crying is far from the normal reaction to a spanking for me, I think it threw him off a bit too. He stopped spanking, started rubbing my back and whispering into my ear. He was telling me what he had planned to do, something that, had I been in the right frame of mind I would have been quite willing to do. In that moment though, I just wasn't sure. In fact, in that moment, I had NO idea what I wanted or needed.

He continued to softly question me as to what I needed. I didn't know, and that's exactly what I told him. I told him he needed to decide what he wanted and just do it, cause all I could specifically say I wanted, was to not have to think. All I wanted was to be able to feel, just let go and feel all the glorious things that only he can make me feel. Just take me to that wonderful place where everything is positive and everything is safe, the place where worries don't exist, the outside world does not exist. Please...take me to that place.

He took me at my word and made a decision. He decided not to continue with the spanking.  I have no idea what would have happened if he had continued and I suppose we will never know. That's okay though, what he did decide to do took me to that wonderful place I so desperately wanted to go. He used one of our new toys, the g spot vibrator, accompanied by the stingy little flogger made from leather shoelaces.

He likes to challenge himself and see how many times he can make me orgasm. I never bother to count, cause I find it distracting, but he often likes too. It's not unusual for me to have dozens, each one taking me higher and higher, to that wonderful, floaty place. Each one more explosive and wilder than the last, until my body is limp and feels like liquid and I can no longer respond in any meaningful way.

He is on a mission to make me squirt.  He rung orgasm after orgasm after orgasm from me. I couldn't think, I couldn't worry, I couldn't remember where I was or that anyone or anything, other than he and I, existed. It was glorious and it was exactly what I needed at that moment. I haven't been able to squirt, yet. But it sure is a lot of fun trying. It may have started out a bit rocky, but we got our "epic".




from @[654290724597325:274:Queena] )R(

18 comments:

  1. Wonderful. So happy for you both and maybe, just maybe, a little jealous.

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    1. No need to be jealous, I know your guy knows how to rock your world. That's all that's really necessary :)

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  2. I love happy endings..and this post sure has a happy ending. I also hope, in a way, it is a new beginning....
    hugs abby

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    1. Thanks abby, there was definitely a happy ending and then some, lol. I do think this is going to be anew beginning, at least for me. I said I was going to make this my year and I am doing the things necessary to make that true for me.

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  3. glad you got your epic...hope you get another soon...while I am here hoping - I hope I get that too! :-)

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    1. Thanks Terpsichore. I hope I get more soon too, they are kinda addictive. I hope you get some epic soon to, every girl needs that once in a while.

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  4. Oh faerie…that is FABULOUS! I am so glad that you worked through and found bliss after meeting an obstacle at the beginning. I wasn't able to squirt until this past year, and now I can't stop. For me, him finding my g-spot and me contracting my pussy…was the magic combination!

    Hugs,
    fiona

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    1. It was rather FABULOUS, heeheeheeee. He has been on this mission for awhile. I've read up on it, I've watched videos, I've done everything I know to do to make it happen, so far, nada. I know if we can make it happen once, it will get easier. I'm just a little bit worried I might be one of those women that physically can't. I've read that some can't, but I'm n ot ready to give up trying yet, actually, I doubt I will ever give up. It's just so much fun trying.

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  5. Awww Faerie...so happy that your Musicman was able to take you where you both needed to go and give you your 'epic'!

    Blessings...
    Cat

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    1. Thanks Cat, it made me pretty happy too. No one can do epic everyday, but when we have the time and the privacy, it sure is welcome :)

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  6. You don't know how much I envy you this ability. I wish you could give lessons! I'm happy for you too.

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    1. PK, if I had any idea how or why I am like this I would give lessons. I have heard from so many women over the years that they don't enjoy sex and never orgasm, that's just a shame. In my opinion, every women should experience mind blowing orgasms. I feel it's our reward for pregnancy and labor, haahaahaaaa.

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  7. So happy for you Faerie that you were both able to get to where you wanted/needed to go and that you got your epic!

    Hugs,
    Roz

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    1. Thanks Roz, I'm glad too, it could have all gone so horribly wrong, instead it went very, very well :)

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    1. Thanks Angel, we rarely ever argue and when we do, we usually move past it pretty quickly. Of course, great sex always helps with that :)

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  9. That sure sounds lovely indeed. :)

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    1. Thanks Julia, it was lovely and very much needed :)

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