Sunday, June 16, 2013

Dear Musicman

Dear Musicman,

Twenty seven years ago today, my life changed, because you gave me your name. You gave me an identity, that for the first time in my life, I was proud of. Twenty seven years ago today, I became your wife.

From the moment you walked into my life and refused to accept no for an answer, I knew my life was taking a turn around a curve I hadn't seen coming. In retrospect, it's a good thing I didn't see it coming. The woman I was then, would have run, far and fast and never slowed down to look back at what she was missing.

I think back and remember how strong you were even then. You knew exactly what you wanted and you weren't afraid to go after it. It is my good fortune, that what you wanted was me, quirks and all. I remember that you were never afraid to take on the important discussions: divorce was not an option, living in a passionless relationship was not an option, disrespecting you was not an option. You were very clear about those things right from the beginning, even when I railed against hearing them, you did not relent.

You never used the words dominance, submission, or obedience, yet that is exactly what your actions evoked. Those are the words that embody and define our relationship. I would also include the words, love, passion, respect and teamwork. WE are an awesome team, that fact, always makes me smile.

I'm so grateful that you believed in our love, even when I initially doubted. I'm so grateful you never waivered when I behaved in less than stellar ways. Right from the beginning, you set about to teach me how to be the best woman I could be. The woman you understood was trapped within me. Time, love and your unrelenting guidance have freed her.

That has resulted in the beautiful life we have built together over the years. It was a life I so desperately desired, yet thought I was too damaged to ever achieve. We've met every challenge head on and conquered it, TOGETHER.

Our life together has not necessarily been an easy one. We've experienced more than our fair share of sorrow: deaths, illnesses, job losses, kid issues, extended family issues. And yet, I would say, our life together has been the most joyful thing I've ever experienced, because I've always had you at my side to face these challenges.

Together, we've met every challenge head on, always remembering the most important thing. Turn towards one another, not away. Together we are so much stronger, together we can face anything, and many times do it with a smile on our face.

We were so young, standing in front of that JP, with just a handful of friends to witness, yet, taking every single word of those vows to heart. An ignominious beginning to be sure. So happily moving into our first small apartment with barely enough hand me down furniture to adequately furnish it.

We've worked hard to build our life together. We own a lovely home, that was perfect for raising our children. We have the requisite picket fence and the dog to accompany those children. We will soon add a grandchild to the mix. I can't wait to see you holding your first grandchild, she's going to love you as much as I do, I just know it.

Over the intervening years you have cared for me, provided for me, supported every hair brained notion I could dream up and always, you have loved me. You are my lover, you are my best friend, you are the Dom to my sub and I wouldn't change a minute of our years together.

My fondest hope is that we have 27 more years together, and then another 27 and another 27.  My most fervent prayer is that when the end comes, I die the day before you do because I don't want to live a day without you.

I love you my beloved Musicman, with every breath I take and nothing will ever change that.

Always,
Your little faerie.






32 comments:

  1. You brought tears to my eyes this Sunday Morning. What a lovely tribute to a wonderful man. Happy Anniversary and I hope you have all those years together too.

    PS. Happy Father's Day too MM

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    1. Happy tears are always a good thing, in my opinion anyway. Thanks for the good wishes, I hope Ray had a lovely father's day also :)

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  2. Happy anniversary to you both, how perfect you are for one another. I hope you have a great day.

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    1. Musicman likes to say he's not perfect, I always tell him he is perfect for me and that's all that's needed. We had a very nice day together :)

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  3. How very sweet and lovely.
    Happy anniversary to you both. May you be blessed with many more.

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    1. Thanks lil, I hope we are blessed with many more too :)

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  4. Beautiful, Faerie. Happy Anniversary!!

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  5. So beautiful!! Happy anniversary. May you have all those years together!!!

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    1. Thank you Sarah, we're doing our best to insure we have many more years together :)

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  6. What a lovely letter faerie. Here's to another 27! Cheers!

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    1. Thanks Riley, before you know it, it will be you and Cael celebrating all those years too :)

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  7. What a beautiful tribute to your true love. Happy anniversary. Hope you had a wonderful day to celebrate. And happy father's day to Music Man as well... Hugs

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    1. Thanks Terpsichore, we had a lovely day together. I hope your hubby had a great father's day too :)

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  8. Happy anniversary, and to many more. That was a wonderful love letter to Music Man..hugs abby

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    1. Thanks abby, it was fun to write. It's always a good thing to remind him even after all these years how much he means to me :)

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  9. That was lovely. Happy belated Anniversary to you both.

    Love,
    Ronnie
    xx

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    1. Thanks Ronnie, we had a lovely day together :)

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  10. Happy anniversary! You are a very lucky woman.

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    1. Thanks you, I couldn't agree more :)

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  11. I am late here, sorry. Happy b-lated Anniversary.
    I am crying, this post was beautiful. You always are so true in your love.

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    1. It's never too late to join the conversation :) Thanks for the lovely comment. It's easy to be true in my love, cause I have one true love and was lucky enough to find him early on.

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  12. I'm late, too. So very sweet, faerie. Hope it was as beautiful as this post, and that it continues to grow more beautiful and more poignant every single year.

    cd

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    1. Thank you ChinaDoll, we had a wonderful day together :)

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  13. Such a beautiful post faerie. You're both very lucky :)

    Dee x

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    1. Thanks Dee, it's a little bit of luck and a lot of hard work :)

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  14. faerie, I just saw this on my feed. What a beautiful message to honor your husband and your 27 years of marriage. Congratulations!

    Irishey

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