Thursday, December 19, 2013

Christmas Gifts, Sub Style

For many reasons I won't go into, this particular holiday has been very difficult for Musicman and myself for many years now. In fact, I can't really remember the last time we celebrated, or enjoyed this particular holiday. I had thought to try this year, but things going on here have made that nearly impossible, so we aren't.

There is no tree, no lights, no cookies, no presents, except for one. We aren't attending any parties, though we may spend some time Christmas Eve with extended family. I say may, because we haven't decided on that for sure yet.

You may be wondering what doom and gloom I'm driveling on about now, but there is one thing I'm excited about. I am planning something, as a surprise for Musicman, that I hope we will both enjoy. I received an email from one of the online adult toy sites I have ordered from in the past. They were having a buy one get one free sale. Of course, I had to at least browse. I did order something. Something that I have been contemplating getting for a long time now. Then I happily picked out my something free, I picked an item that I am hoping will help me achieve something that Musicman really wants from me.

The toys are due to be delivered on the Monday before Christmas. We both have Christmas Eve and Christmas Day off from work, that's very rare for us. If I get my way, we will spend most of both those days hold up in our room playing. And, just to help inspire him I'm writing him a story. I haven't written anything just for him in quite some time. I will be incorporating the new toys, plus some other things into the story.

I'm a bit nervous about writing this particular story, it may reveal a much darker side to both of us. I may never share it with anyone other than him, but that's okay. Or, it may go over really, really well and we will have taken a giant step forward in our relationship. That's what I'm hoping for anyway.



18 comments:

  1. Hmmmm makes me wonder what you are up to. Have fun.

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    1. Hmmmm...not much, really, just a little shopping and some story telling.

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  2. Hey Faerie...wishing you and Musicman a wonderful time together. Hope you both enjoy your story and new toys. Doesn't matter if you share it with anyone other than him. ;)

    Blessings...Cat

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    1. Thanks Cat, I don't often write for him, but when I do I rarely share it with any one other than him. That would kinda defeat the purpose of writing FOR him.

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  3. Hope things are as you expect them to be. Enjoy each other and have the kind of holiday you want.

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    1. Thanks Sunnygirl, I doubt that will happen, but I haven't given up hoping I'm wrong.

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  4. I sure hope you have a wonderful time together.

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  5. You know we all have those dark sides, right faerie? We're all waiting for that one last final thing that we say and everyone looks at us like we've lost our minds are are really way to dirty to be read anymore. But you know what? We're ALL still here!

    I hope you both have play time that makes Christmas and Christmas Eve a time of healing and connection for you two. You both deserve that! You deserve healing…you're both living this life and … you need to remember to LIVE it! Not forget the past, not pretend it didn't happen, but also try to live each day you have.

    Good luck…dear faerie! I hope you soar!

    hugs,
    fiona

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    1. I do know we all have our dark sides. That isn't what would prevent me from posting the story. When I write for Musicman, they tend to be very specific to his fantasies. I guess maybe I'm just not that comfortable sharing those things yet.

      As for really LIVING each day, I do try. I am a big believer in living for today because none of us are promised tomorrow. It's just been a bit more difficult to do that lately than I would like. But, I do still try.

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  6. Wishing you a wonderful celebration together ... your way and hope you both enjoy the story and new toys together.

    Hugs,
    Roz

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    1. Thanks Roz, I know it seems a bit unconventional, but conventional just doesn't work for me right now. It may never work well for me again, but that remains to be seen.

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  7. Sounds like could be a great holiday for the two of you. I hope it all works out, could be a new tradition.
    hugs abby

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    1. I like the idea that it may become a new tradition. We certainly need some knew traditions since the old ones no longer seem to work well for us.

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  8. I hope the toys lead to something very fun for you both. :-) Hugs

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  9. here's hoping you had a delightful christmas playtime...it isn't always about the tree and lights etc. They are tools to help us through the darkest time of the year and for everyone that will be different. I think planning a virtual run through the adult online toy store sounds like a great way to break the dark-day blahs. Hoping you two had a lot of playtime and that you are walking like you spent your time off riding. ;)

    nilla

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    1. Oh nilla, I wish I could say that everything worked out just the way I wanted, unfortunately, they didn't. Two kids, two emergent situations and all our private time was blown to hell.

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